Wednesday, December 31, 2008

helloooOOO 2009!

last day of the year!! nothing much to look forward to.. except maybe graduation so i can go back to work!!! i miss CE like hell la.. miss the 'working urself to death' feeling.. miss the adrenaline rush esp when its all so super crowded and u manage to accomplish every single task.. miss working like an octopus basically.. haa.. 6 more mths to go.. zzz...

Thursday, December 25, 2008

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! HOHOHO!

i'm doing my assignments.. geez..

Friday, December 19, 2008

ASSignments

The really strenuous part abt studying is when it comes to exams and assignments.. like duh~
so right now, this is wat i'm going thru!! grr... i dun mind doing presentations n stuff, but writing of assignments can jus KILL me.. i'm so not an english person la.. maybe writing in chinese will be better.. haa.. like which era i live in eh...

this counselling thing is really getting on my 12 cranial nerves!!
first was the 'interview' part.. supposed to find someone to sort of 'counsel'.. but its not jus talking to that person.. ya hafta record the whole conversation and after that transcribe it to be included in your report..
at first i thought "aiya.. jus talk talk very easy.." but i was totally WRONG!! tried to counsel ervin but the whole night of recording was all CRAP! haha.. perhaps i started without any idea of wat this counselling shit is all abt.. or maybe like wat he says, its quite hard for me to relate to a guys problem.. but he did gave me an insight of how to go abt counselling someone la.. so the next day when i interviewed my next best candidate it was all smooth sailing.. WE DID IT AT FIRST ATTEMPT!! and it was a good 30mins of recording.. i jus hafta say.. my darling is jus damn good at talking!!! hahahaha.. its a compliment ya.. keke..

then the next problem comes.. the transcript!! after doing the transcript i really can understand the hardwork of those scriptwriters.. its really HARDWORK.. my head almost ruptured into tau huey can.. i think my darling said like ten thousand 'you knows' in the whole conversation.. and i said like a million 'uh-huhs'.. and my head almost rolled off the floor from the noddings.. lol!!! yes, even things like 'erm', 'hmm', 'lo, leh, la', and also non-verbals are all included in the transcript!!!!!
jus 4 hours i spent last night and i only transcribed 10 mins of the whole conversation.. play, pause, type.. den replay to check, n replay to continue with the next line.. and mind you.. the lines hafta be numbered and even the timing!!! gosh.. i wonder what is it they really want us to learn from this thing.. whether is it the counselling skill or the transcripting skill.. faints..

okok.. time to go back to tt piece of crap.. ciaoz!

Monday, December 15, 2008

(None)

I'm not sure if you'll see this, but I thought there ought to be some form of closure n stuff..

Its time for me to let go.. forget you, as what you said..

It was ambiguous right from the start. Indisputable.

But as a stubborn child, I held on to that false hope.. thinking perhaps one day, things will turn out the way I wanted.

Perhaps.

Perhaps it really will, if you'd said those words earlier.

Those three words were all I asked for.

You said you can't be selfish, to make me wait my whole life.

Seriously, I don't think so.

If what you want is really, me.

We could have made plans together, work things out, whatever it is.

But its all too late now.

I have someone in my life. Someone else, not you.

Blame it on my misinterpretation. (I chose to believe as that.)

I'll take on the role as a sinner, so to feel better.

No apologies here, cos I think there's no right or wrong in relationships.(or was it even considered one?)

I just follow whatever my heart tells me to.

Believe me, my heart still ached like hell last night.

But I told myself, that will be the last time for my tears to fall because of you.

You asked me, whether I'll be happy if you say you're coming back.

Here's my answer..

I would have been on cloud nine. Again, if you said it earlier.

No hopes for you to understand.

I just thought you need to know...

Saturday, December 13, 2008

almost killed

not literally thou..
almost got killed by the patho paper..
or perhaps it'll really kill me (i hope not)..
i'm perfectly fine with jus a D.. really...

cHROn|cLEs