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okays.. things has been going awry for the past few days.. everything seemed to be pissing me off.. every little thing.. including teddy.. i jus got pissed by him last night for the slightest thing.. he said i din tell him i was on leave.. but i remembered very clearly i did told him and not like once.. but he insisted.. said i din mention at all and not even in my msgs.. i got pissed and went thru my past msgs and forwarded the evident to him.. thats how he made me angry at like 1am can.. and i'm ignoring him.. well, i was angry not becos he din remember a thing abt my leave.. i was mad at him for the accusation.. i got so furious my tears fell.. u know, i cry when i'm in extreme anger.. oh, watever~

then this afternoon, the damn computer kena VIRUS!! kaozz.. i dunno wat exactly it is.. some spyware or trojan or wateva.. and i couldn't even go into internet explorer!! and i panicked la obviously.. was having palpitations and my hands were trembling! haa~ never epxerienced such bad hysteria, those that happened during bad resus wasn't at all this bad.. okays.. abit exaggerating.. haha.. anyways.. i got dad to bring it down to the computer shop before i really go bonkers.. hee~ no choice wat.. not as if i'm some computer expert to fix the damn thing.. i'm probably better in jus online shopping.. haha! hope they can fix it like tmr? argh!!! i'm so lifeless without my com!!!

finally back at work tonight! rotting is not tt interesting a pastime afterall.. but i did enjoy my deserved rest lah.. haha.. okays.. tts contradicting.. my assignment is like ........... i dunno wat to say.. tonight is still not too bad.. outside with rakiyah.. told them to kill me at 0730hrs later so i dun hafta come to work.. shall not go into too much details abt tmr's assignment.. jus hope tt it'll be a smooth shift... PLEASE!!!~~

Pathetic

Life is.
Try killing someone and say sorry after that.
Get the picture?
Duh~

Any rich man out there???

Nice?? someone buy me tt.. i'll consider marrying u.. wahaha!

I'm praying for you baby..

p.s. never mind what people say as long as our conscious is clear. thats how you stay strong. :)

Happiness

Really touched by what darling said in her recent post.. abt how richard is the angel sent by her daddy from heaven to walk her through the rest of her life.. i cried as i was reading.. you know, i think its true when people say that a daddy will always protect his girl no matter what happened, and if a guy cannot protect you and take care of you the way your daddy did, then never marry this person.. well, this i believe to a certain extent.. nobody, even the best guy you think you ever met, can ever replace your daddy..

I was being brought up with my daddy pampering and spoiling me.. he always wants the best for me and my sis.. the best food, the best clothes.. a certain thing we wanted and he'll get the best quality of it for us, never minded the price.. we're not from a well to do family that is.. thats his way of loving us.. not much words spoken, but deep in our hearts, we know he loves us..

Perhaps thats how it affected the way i see a man.. the father figure.. sometimes i'm really envious of my mom.. to have met such a wonderful man in her life, and to start a family with him.. i couldn't help but wonder, will i ever meet somebody like him? to provide me his unconditional love, to take care of me like his little girl..

With my wilful thinking, a lot of times i thought, maybe by showing it first will i get the kind of love i always wanted.. and in attempts to do so, it always ended up with me getting hurt.. the torment was simply too much to bear.. i've since learnt to relinquish the idea, the search for the perfect father figure, and come to realise that no one can ever replace my daddy..

I think daddy wanted the same as i did.. for me to meet someone who loves me the way he does.. i still remember very clearly how his tears fell when he learnt about what happened to sis.. my heart ached so badly i thought i was dying from it.. never do i want to see that happen ever again.. that i promised myself..

I'm really happy for darling.. that she'd found her happiness.. being so blessed and blissful with her hubby.. well, if yours has yet to come, why not feel happy for the one you love first right? :)

4 NIGHTS again...

yes.. i'm doing 4 nights like again can.. haha! been doing 4 nights quite often nowadays.. this yr i mean.. before tt i've only did once 4 nights and i tot i hated it.. haha.. but now i think its quite ok.. after u get used to it.. and what can be more alluring than the rest days u get after tt? haha.. the thing is.. i tend to always fall sick after the 4 nights.. *faintz* hahaha! okays.. like half the time lah.. the other time i had this really bad tummy ache and had to lie in bed for 2 days lor! 5 days off frm work and i stayed home becos of tt.. wat an arse right?

today is the 3rd night le!! one more to go.. and today i'm outside with kak jah again.. *fingers crossed* haha.. wish me luck ya..

i'll be on leave again!! what shall i do for the next 2 weeks den? weeEEE!!~

spooky~

okays.. the freakiest thing jus happened.. was walking into T2 with my coffee when the computer screen went into internet explorer by itself and then went on to the yahoo page.. mouse din move at all.. so did the pointer.. all these happened in like 1 second.. freaked out.. but i'm still using the damn bloody com now.. hee~ duh..

SICK

I feel so much like puking.. someone pass me Ondens please? :D

zzZZZ

w-a-i-t-i-n-g f-o-r m-y n-i-g-h-t s-h-i-f-t t-o e-n-d...

My Latest TOY!!!!

YAY!!!! Finally i got it!! hee~ I've been EYEING this baby for MONTHS okays!! haha.. I'm LOVIN it to the core of my arse!!!!

Look at how pretty my baby is!! haha.. its small(well, smallest of all touchscreen phones in the market at this point) and stylish.. looks like a PDA but not exactly a PDA lah.. haha.. but its good for idiots like me cos its really user friendly.. i managed to play with it without even flipping the user manual!! plus its functions are not bad! okays.. i'm not someone who needs fancy functions in a phone la.. haha.. basics are there.. 5MP camera with face detection and anti-shake, fully touchscreen(erm.. except for the call buttons.. duh~), 3.5G, web browser.. surfing is really fast lor!! haha.. music and video player, FM radio, organizer, blah blah.. the only thing is it doesn't come with a stylus.. which means... ALOT OF FINGERPRINTS!!!! hahaha.. but the sensitivity is ok lah.. acceptable.. thou sometimes it gets abit too sensitive.. well, tts kinda like expected of a touchscreen right.. imagine if its not so sensitive.. den u'll press till the screen crack maybe.. LOL!!~

Anyways.. I'm so lovin my new phone!!! weeEEEE!!!!!

New Phone!!!

I'm going to buy my new phone tmr!!! yay!! finally its OUT!!! Wee~

MY HERO(S)!!!!

those who know me well enough will know tt i have this fetish for FIREFIGHTERS!! heh~ and today, i had the feeling of being the HAPPIEST woman in the world!!! haha! had a good time seeing SO MANY MANY firefighters at one time!!!

was at triage today and at abt 12noon, suddenly i saw a RED RINO stopping at our ambulance bay!! haha.. i was with a patient but suddenly my heart started beating very fast!! 'what's tt red rino doing outside CE??!!' i thought.. then, few seconds later, tt bunch of firefighters frm the red rino came RUNNING thru the triage and into the resus room!! YES! they were running as though there was a BIG FIRE in the resus room!!! hahaha.. i got a shock! so did the patient who was with me..

few minutes later came an ambulance and i tot there was a pt in it.. but i was with another pt so din go out to receive the 'case'.. but i looked thru the glass wall and saw no pt on the stretcher! they were here together with the red rino.. haha..

so after i cleared triage(i dunno y i was alone), i went in to resus rm to take a look.. for obvious reason.. haha!! it was damn chaotic inside!! so many *gasp* firefighters plus the paramedics!! haha.. doctors, nurses.. even ADN Pang and the DDN was there together with sister tor and sister lee.. i think there were like 20-30 ppl in the resus rm.. they were all crowding at something.. too many ppl i can't even see what they're crowding at.. haha.. so i asked sister lee what happened.. then she said, the kiddo's finger got stuck in this metal steamer tingy and no matter what they do it jus couldn't get out.. so the SCDF was called to see if they have any special equipments to cut tt metal thing up..

seeing so many ppl in the resus rm and nobody at triage, i returned to my triage counter.. then.. 2 policemen walked in.. and then into resus rm again.. 'why do we need policemen in there?' i thought.. haha.. so the firefighters and the paramedics were walking in and out of the resus room all the time.. making my heart pounding so fast each time they walk past.. haha!! but i had pts keep coming in so i had to try very hard to keep my 'cool'.. [i was almost going crazy!!! wahaha!]

after tt i went for my break and came back.. they're STILL in there trying to free the finger.. and to my 'HORROR'.. the DART team was there too!!! like.. IS THERE AN EARTHQUAKE???!!! hahaha.. for one small finger they had to activate soooooo many ppl??!!! in the end i think they took like abt 3 hrs to free tt finger.. hahaha.. frm those really HUGE equipments to the small ones.. whateva can be used they used it.. haha!

after the finger was freed, all started to pack up and go.. sister lee thanked the sgt frm the DART team and the police.. then i jokingly asked sister lee how come one small finger need to activate so many ppl.. den she said she oso dunno.. she jus called 995 for help and the firefighters came.. paramedics came.. and even the police and DART team came!! hahaha.. Juls was saying she even saw those big big fire engines outside KKH too!! jus tt the fire engine was too BIG and can't drive into B1.. haha!! then the police explained tt once 995 is activated all these will follow too.. haha.. thou its abit like misusing the authority and manpower, it din matter to me at all!! haha.. cos i get to see so many firefighters at one go!! [not to mention some quite cute ones.. wahaha!] like when do they come to hospitals if not for fire drill right?? hahaha... HAPPY HAPPY!!!