7, 49 & 97 Days

alrights.. tts some numbers to count.. 7 days to dearie coming back.. 49 days to joy's big return.. and finally 97 days to GRADUATION!!!!!!

finally got a call frm dearie.. he jus got "home" after a 12 hours drive frm brisbane.. hee.. oh.. i jus confirmed with him.. he really took A380 to aussie!!!!!!!! and he's coming back with that too!!! shit him.. he's saying it as thou its no big deal.. geez.. maybe i'm more swa ku la.. grr..

went to SEMS today again.. tts 2 consecutive days this year!! i couldn't believe tt i din fall asleep this year.. haha.. and i made the effort to wake up early today to attend when i din have to.. hee.. pat on my shoulder.. lucky i went thou.. Dr Ang presented on Russell's case.. so he died from multiple cardiac injuries.. some lacerations at the pericardium and the ventricles, and there was also some slight hemothorax and hemoperitoneum.. no intracranial hemorrhages thou.. tts surprising.. poor boy.. to this date the impact is still so great on me.. i guess this is one case i'll remember for life..

joy's coming back lo!!! but y after my bdae leh.. haha.. ok la.. shall forgive her since she's coming back for good.. i think tt overruled one silly birthday of mine yea? haa..

8 Days

boo.. he din call again today.. tt got me a little worried.. hope he's fine while having fun..

9 Days

boo.. my dum dum din call today.. he's probably out surfing i guess.. geez.. n he's KIV going skydiving!!!!!!! kaozz.. tell me u're not jealous.. his trip is jus so adventurous can.. grr.. and i haven confirm with him but i'm quite sure he took the AIRBUS TO SYDNEY!! A380!!!! okok.. wait till i get a confirmation.. shall not get too excited yet.. AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh.. my kate spade is shipped!! hee.. its really the card problem.. and i shall declare my boycott for DBS from this moment onwards.. lala.. can't wait till it reach my doorstep!!!

i'm stuck with my ectopic preg assignment and this is the worse worse assignment ever.. gosh.. y did i pick tt case anyways.. maybe to prove my hatred for O&G.. i see tt as the highest probability.. haa.. okok.. needa catch some sleep else i'll probably meet my dum dum during SEMS tmr.. in lala land tt is.. hee..

I MISS U!!!!!!

10 Days

an interesting quote frm my darling.. she says.. "women are multi-taskers. we can work n miss someone at the same time but not so for our male counterparts." hee..

i finally bought myself a kate spade bag!! drools.. been eyeing at kate spade for quite some time and its always either they have nothing nice or the ones i wanted are OOS.. stupid thing is kate spade jus mailed me saying they cancelled my order but din state y they did so.. i reckon it could be a card problem so i re-ordered using another card.. hope it works this time.. dunno y but i always can't use DBS cards to do online shopping.. geez.. another reason to boycott them.. haas..

my latest love... :)

11 Days

great.. number smaller by ONE.. haa.. got a surprise call frm dearie jus before my shift.. okays.. he's supposed to call after touch down but i guess its sleeping time for me so he din call.. :) good to hear his voice after such a LOOOOONG time.. 16 hrs to be exact.. faints.. he went shopping already on the first day! grr.. this is so unfair.. i must oso go horiday!!!

the silliest thing jus happened to me today!! i jus realised i wasted 1405 DBS points can!!! shit! thats 7k of spendings.. all gone cos i din check the expiry date.. and it got expired jus like that.. 4 days ago.. grrr!!! i tot there's no expiry date!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! pui!! y din they send me a warning or smth to remind me of my points.. PUI! boycott DBS for 1 mth..

today we went off early again.. much much early than before.. geez.. guilty guilty.. oh well, i'd rather come back and work on my assignment than to stay there n idle my time away.. attachments are a total waste of time this time round.. especially so with the atrocious management of the current hospital.. both medical and nursing.. 2 more days to go and i'm FREEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!! tt leaves me with assignment due date thou.. hee.. wateva~

i can't wait to hug my dum dum!!!

12 Days

boo.. its the official start of my indisposed freedom.. yay.. its 12 damn fucking days.. gosh.. wat am i supposed to do for the whole 12 days? good for him my dum dum superman.. :) shld be having a great time on flight with his lads now.. oh well.. i must enjoy myself more than him i dun care.. geez.. more like drowning myself with assignments and presentations.. grr.. i tot of coming in to say i miss him everyday but.. tts REALLY geeky can.. haas..

okok.. i'm sure there'll be lotsa fun n laughter down under.. oh here i go again the jealousy me.. hee.. I MISS U HEAPS ALREADY!! muackzz dearie! :D

Valentine's Day

my first v day 'celebration' since i had memory.. or maybe first with a partner.. oh well, all these years i always din have a partner during valentines day.. [ok, had one but tt can never be official] i always dreamed of having a romantic dinner or doing some romantic stuff with my partner during valentines day.. thou it may mean just-like-any-other-day to some but i tot it'll be really nice to go thru tt feeling, even if its jus once in this lifetime..

initially i tot of getting him a PS3 since its wat he yearned for.. but its kinda ex la.. maybe wait till i save more money.. so tt left me without any idea wat to give him.. not tt its a must to give gifts during valentines day but i tot its my way of showing appreciation.. den i tot.. y not just stick to the old fashioned way.. baking him something.. plus he's kind of a sweet tooth i realised.. so i decided.. muffins it shall be..

with the attachments and assignments all cramped together i din really have time to get ready for baking.. and i got my ingredients just the night before.. luckily i found a really sweet card tt says exactly how i feel, while we're slacking one fine day during attachment.. anyways.. i wanted to do a trial baking the night before since its such a loooooong time since i last baked.. but i was too tired after shift and fell asleep instead.. so i took the risk like "jus bake dun care if it turns out well".. haha.. the result.. looks nice but its kinda hard la.. but mommy did say it was still eatable.. :)

i decorated the card abit cos it was all too plain.. one day this idea suddenly came into mind and i tot it was quite cute.. 鼻涕虫 is wat he calls me and superman is him.. :)

i rushed to meet him cos he's on night.. his 2nd night.. geez.. wat a valentines eh.. oh well, its less than 15 mins.. the time i met him till he took cab n send me home.. its wasn't as wat i expected thou.. it was more of like.. jus pass him the muffins like i'm passing any other thing.. disappointed.. i don't know wat kinda feeling it was but my heart ached.. i dont know y.. maybe i was expecting too much from him.. haiz.. he did say it was really sweet thou.. and he felt bad he din get me anything.. or maybe it was when he said "i have no money to spend on you" tt i felt really bad.. its not abt him not getting anything.. i dun mind seriously [we did go for 'dinner' the other day].. but its the words he said.. my mood jus fell to zero stat when he said tt..

i hate myself for being so crazy most times.. i dont know exactly y but i reckon its me yearning wat i couldn't get.. i feel very much loved by him each time we're together.. but hate the part where we meet just once a week? i dont see myself as tt clingly.. i admit i can be sometimes.. i noe abt personal space and i seriously agree we must have.. but seeing him once a week and jus tt few hrs each time is really not enough for me.. i miss him everyday, every second, every minute.. but i dun feel it frm him.. he seemed to be having so much fun, enjoying himself more with his friends than with me.. he doesnt introduce me to his friends thou he knew most of mine.. i couldnt help but wonder, who am i to him? am i even considered his girlfriend, or even someone special?

perhaps it was really too fast.. frm knowing each other to getting really close.. perhaps we shld have settled our previous one before we jump into anything.. i must admit i havent let go tt FB(fucking bastard) initially when we got 'together'.. i was afraid i'm treating him like a rebound.. but seriously.. tt FB made me hate him on his own.. so he was never a rebound..

haiz.. maybe i should jus wait n see...

MOUTH BIG BRAIN SMALL

to tt arsehole loi out there.. i know you have a MBBS but wats the big deal?!! u are just a FUCKING ARSEHOLE who dun even look into the mirror!!! so wat if its JUST A PNEUMOTHORAX FOR GOD'S SAKE??!!!! i've never heard a pneumothorax in my life CAN??!!! dun tell me u're born to know wat a pneumothorax sound like!!! WAT DA HELL WAS WRONG TO AUSCULTATE A PNEUMOTHORAX??! pls la.. we all were once a student INCLUDING YOU! y didn't u tell ur medical students off??!! jus because we're NURSES doesn't mean u can pin us down jus like that! yea.. we earn peanuts as compared to you.. we wipe ppl's arse unlike u.. (i bet u havent wiped one) we dun study as much as you.. but SO??!!! try working in the dept one day without any nurses.. jus dun let me catch you peeing in ur pants! and one very last and the ultimate advice i have for you.. DON'T EVER THINK OF BECOMING A TRAINEE COS YOU CAN'T ESCAPE COMING TO MY DEPARTMENT FOR POSTING. AND IF THATS GONA HAPPEN THEN JUST PRAY THAT YOU WON'T HAVE TO WORK WITH ME THE WHOLE OF YOUR SIX MONTHS! YOU WOULDN'T HAVE A GOOD TIME I PROMISE. PUI!!!!!

i couldn't believe what i saw.. those words.. to think that they actually came from you.. i was still feeling kinda bad when i refused meeting you.. i seriously didn't want bad memories for us.. or perhaps u wanted some, then i see why u're doing so..

i felt bad getting myself attached in such a short time after u left.. i can't deny i still had feelings for you at that time.. at that time.. i thought it wasn't fair for you at all.. but then again.. nothing is fair in this world.. i feel that everyone deserves a chance to get what they wanted.. and sad to say.. its not you.. i had enough of stupid relationships.. taking me for granted.. thinking i'll stay loyal no matter wat happened.. see.. its vice versa and expecting someone to wait for you while u had fun is simply outrageous and SELFISH TO THE CORE OF MY ARSE! though u didn't want me to wait THEORETICALLY but coming back with all your nonsense, asking me y is he more important than u, spelt everything as clearly as can be..

if you ever see this, i'm telling you.. his name is Ervin Tan and he's the important man in my life right now besides my dad.. i love him and don't you dare insult him again.. i'm so gona stuff tt dick of urs up ur arse!