helloooOOO 2009!

last day of the year!! nothing much to look forward to.. except maybe graduation so i can go back to work!!! i miss CE like hell la.. miss the 'working urself to death' feeling.. miss the adrenaline rush esp when its all so super crowded and u manage to accomplish every single task.. miss working like an octopus basically.. haa.. 6 more mths to go.. zzz...

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! HOHOHO!

i'm doing my assignments.. geez..

ASSignments

The really strenuous part abt studying is when it comes to exams and assignments.. like duh~
so right now, this is wat i'm going thru!! grr... i dun mind doing presentations n stuff, but writing of assignments can jus KILL me.. i'm so not an english person la.. maybe writing in chinese will be better.. haa.. like which era i live in eh...

this counselling thing is really getting on my 12 cranial nerves!!
first was the 'interview' part.. supposed to find someone to sort of 'counsel'.. but its not jus talking to that person.. ya hafta record the whole conversation and after that transcribe it to be included in your report..
at first i thought "aiya.. jus talk talk very easy.." but i was totally WRONG!! tried to counsel ervin but the whole night of recording was all CRAP! haha.. perhaps i started without any idea of wat this counselling shit is all abt.. or maybe like wat he says, its quite hard for me to relate to a guys problem.. but he did gave me an insight of how to go abt counselling someone la.. so the next day when i interviewed my next best candidate it was all smooth sailing.. WE DID IT AT FIRST ATTEMPT!! and it was a good 30mins of recording.. i jus hafta say.. my darling is jus damn good at talking!!! hahahaha.. its a compliment ya.. keke..

then the next problem comes.. the transcript!! after doing the transcript i really can understand the hardwork of those scriptwriters.. its really HARDWORK.. my head almost ruptured into tau huey can.. i think my darling said like ten thousand 'you knows' in the whole conversation.. and i said like a million 'uh-huhs'.. and my head almost rolled off the floor from the noddings.. lol!!! yes, even things like 'erm', 'hmm', 'lo, leh, la', and also non-verbals are all included in the transcript!!!!!
jus 4 hours i spent last night and i only transcribed 10 mins of the whole conversation.. play, pause, type.. den replay to check, n replay to continue with the next line.. and mind you.. the lines hafta be numbered and even the timing!!! gosh.. i wonder what is it they really want us to learn from this thing.. whether is it the counselling skill or the transcripting skill.. faints..

okok.. time to go back to tt piece of crap.. ciaoz!

(None)

I'm not sure if you'll see this, but I thought there ought to be some form of closure n stuff..

Its time for me to let go.. forget you, as what you said..

It was ambiguous right from the start. Indisputable.

But as a stubborn child, I held on to that false hope.. thinking perhaps one day, things will turn out the way I wanted.

Perhaps.

Perhaps it really will, if you'd said those words earlier.

Those three words were all I asked for.

You said you can't be selfish, to make me wait my whole life.

Seriously, I don't think so.

If what you want is really, me.

We could have made plans together, work things out, whatever it is.

But its all too late now.

I have someone in my life. Someone else, not you.

Blame it on my misinterpretation. (I chose to believe as that.)

I'll take on the role as a sinner, so to feel better.

No apologies here, cos I think there's no right or wrong in relationships.(or was it even considered one?)

I just follow whatever my heart tells me to.

Believe me, my heart still ached like hell last night.

But I told myself, that will be the last time for my tears to fall because of you.

You asked me, whether I'll be happy if you say you're coming back.

Here's my answer..

I would have been on cloud nine. Again, if you said it earlier.

No hopes for you to understand.

I just thought you need to know...

almost killed

not literally thou..
almost got killed by the patho paper..
or perhaps it'll really kill me (i hope not)..
i'm perfectly fine with jus a D.. really...

Consolidation

Gosh.. haven been updating this little place of mine for a long time.. been really busy with school stuff.. always feel super drained after school so i jus wana SLEEP when i'm home.. perhaps Irene was right.. my arse must be icthing like hell for me to take up this course.. grr..

Lotsa stuff happened.. happy, unhappy, confusing, disheartening, and i thought at one point i was kinda lost.. i guess its all been sorted out now.. i hope.. i must admit sometimes i still feel a little shaken[not shaken baby syndrome thou].. but overall i think we're all moving on quite well.. i'm happy with wat i have now.. and i appreciate every single thing that happened..

i jus wana lead a simple life.. if you know wat i mean.. :D

4Fs

Remember once we're discussing abt the risk factors of cholelithiasis(gall stones)? with darling n tee yu i think.. on our way to Le Bar.. haha.. we got 3 out of the 4 Fs.. tt is: fat, female, fourty.. no matter what we jus couldn't get the last F and i jus said its Fucker to end it.. haha

After such a long time[we couldn't be bothered to find out the ans..], I finally got it!! the last F is FERTILE!! heh~

Fatty, fertile females in their fourties! :)

Happy Halloween!!

Halloween was FUN!!!!!!


I'm too tired to type..

Coping

Okays.. here's another interesting theory i learnt today.. this one's frm mental health thou.. Here goes..

Coping: In your opinion, after a breakup, do you think the male will be able to cope better or the female?

Hah! i see that your poor brain cells are dying for nothing.. u must be thinking the male will cope better cos they're usually task oriented and this kinda issue usually won't bother them. BUT on the other hand, females generally have higher EQ as compared to our male counterparts.. (face the fact guys..) therefore, theoretically the females shld be coping better isn't it?

Actually, how well a person can cope after the breakup is not determined by the sex.. haha.. rather, how the person was being brought up as a child. Individuals who are brought up with parents showering lotsa tender loving care generally can cope better. Example, when an infant feels hungry and keeps on crying, the parent immediately give him/her milk. Subsequently the child stops crying. Here we're looking at satisfaction, trust and sense of security. [According to Freud's developmental theory, the oral stage talks about an infant's pleasure centres being at the mouth.] Throughout the childhood, even up to adolescence, parents are there to provide care and support when the child needs it. This then create a great sense of security in that individual and hence, after the breakup, he/she does not feel lost. In fact, with the sense of security, they feel that there's no need to be dependent on the other person, they can live on their own.

Same theory applies on the other side of the story. If you were being brought up with ur parents always scolding you, beating you, there's no trust between the parent and the child. Therefore the child will not feel secure at all. So the child grows up with this sense of insecurity, and when something happens (read: breakup), they feel lost and plus the insecurity that was already there, they find it difficult to cope.

Well, the accuracy of this theory is still up to your discretion. But for me, its so true la. :)

I miss you baby..

我不想忘记你

Control

This is kinda interesting, logical at the same time. As it was mentioned during the psycho lecture yesterday, that control is just a perception. It is not real. In a sense, a person can feel that he/she is in control, being dominant, but can they control every single thing in this world? All these are just perceived thoughts. HOWEVER, it does make a person feel better [more like a coping mechanism thou]. Example, you think that you're in control of everything, but do you know whats gona happen to you the next day, or even the next moment? See what I mean? :)

Immediately when the lecturer talked about this, something came into my mind. It was one of those days when I was feeling lousy and talking to darling. Then she mentioned that I'm someone who has very good control of my life, as in I know what I want and I stand firm to my decision. Not exactly what she said but u know, the idea is there. Haha. Well, its true to a certain extent thou. If you look back on what I just said. Things didn't turn out exactly the way I wanted right?

Seriously, most times I just enjoy going with the flow, solve each problem as they come by. Its just too tormenting to speculate every single thing in life. It makes you age faster too, ain't it?

And the thing about perceived control. If it is real, then does it mean that you have the power to control someone else's life too? We all know the fact is otherwise. Thats also the reason why we feel so miserable at times, agree ya?

So, next time before you say that you're in control, or someone else is in control, think again ya. :)

Tomorrow i shall pack my room, my wardrobe and my shoe rack..

I'm gona be a good girl!

Hoho..

we shall see.. :D

Emergency Nurses (updated 28 oct)

How to survive working in an ED.

1) Walk fast.

2) Eat fast.

3) Work fast.

4) Talk fast.

5) Remain calm even when the sky falls on you.

6) Master the skill of working like an octopus.

*Thats all i can think of at the moment.. shall update if i can think of more.. haha.. going for class now.. ciaoz!

**added on by missy andie:

7)Shit fast

8)Think fast

9)Siam fast (for those bloody lazy arse who simply keep eating snake!!)

10)Kena complain oso very fast!![haha]

This is interesting. come on ppl, contribute more ideas!! lol!!

Updates!!

Okays i'm so not in the mood to blog nowadays.. tired, lazy, simply can't be bothered ya.. haha.. so we shall make it short n sweet..

School started!! finally.. heh~ wat can i say? its FUN FUN FUN!! haha.. till this point of time i shld say.. as u noe first week of sch usually they let u relax, adjust to sch life first before they really drill u.. so, yea.. first day of sch and we started straight on BTLS.. ITLS (International Trauma Life Support) now actually.. so we were doing the so called basic stuff la.. extrication is basic okays! imagine the later part.. *faints*

so during practice, while trying to "extricate" me from the "exploding car"[we're using real cars thou], my precious phone slipped from my pocket!! and smashed right onto the not-so-very-smooth floor.. *CRIES* now my phone has 2 ugly holes!!!! argh!!!

Otherwise i totally enjoyed class so far.. at first i was quite worried abt coping n stuff.. but i think i'm more or less back to the student me.. heh..




p.s. I miss DARLING!!!!! :(

FUCK YOUR BLOODY ARSE!! WHOEVER U ARE THAT WANTS ME N MY FAMILY DEAD!! TO THINK THAT U CAME UP WITH SUCH AN IDEA.. U FREAKING BASTARD!!! DONKEY ORIFICE!! ITS NO WONDER U SIT ON UR FACE!!! EAT N SHIT THRU THE SAME ORIFICE!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! KNN!!!

MAY UR MOTHER'S CHEE BYE ROT TO HELL!!!!!!


okays, i'm really pissed...

but still, i hafta thank God for everything.. remember i said God has His plans? thank God daddy's at home and using the com.. if not i wouldn't even dare to think wat might happen.. i jus think we're too lucky this time..

New found friend!

I found a friend at work!! Well, not exactly like lost n found kinda thing.. okays.. we shall say made a new friend.. haha.. He's this new radiographer in the dept.. oh, tts not impt.. *he's impt in the dept la, but tts not the main reason i'm writing this* keke.. so he found me in facebook, blah blah.. long story.. anyways we chatted abit tt night and realised he's frm st pats! haha.. so we talked abt the stuffs frm the past.. u noe like the sacians n kcians always hangs around with guys frm st pats or SJI (oh, he hated SJI boys..).. i was one of the more 'guai' or shld u say n-e-r-d in sch la.. din really hang out with guys frm other sch.. probably just a few frm SJI or st gabs.. alright, tts not impt..

Somehow it seemed to have brought me back to the past.. the good old days in sch where we jus do silly things together and sloth our time away.. the best phase of my life, seriously.. recently i kept having this nostalgic feeling, especially when the girls are together.. we have 5 sacians in the dept!! plus devi will be 6 okays! like how many ex-sacians can u find in the entire nursing field? and we currently have 5 in the same dept! lol!! i remembered once when me, germac, francine n sue zhen were all on the same night shift and we finished report early tt night.. so u noe when the girls meet, we chittery-chat NON-STOP! haha.. the rest of them jus stared at us in disbelief as we yakked.. for a moment i thought we were back in SAC.. haha.. thou we all met each other only at CE, it feels as if we knew each other for a long long time.. sorta like the deja vu tingy.. haha!


I'm going back to sch with germac!! hee~ not in SAC thou.. in NYP rather.. keke.. looking forward to it! *grinz*

I shall chop my hair off before school starts..

Sounds like a great idea~ :D

Entomophobia

This mommy brought her kiddo today n said tt her boy got stung by a bee.. the thing is, she brought along tt bee too.. its wrapped with tissue paper n in a plastic bag.. so the mommy happily opened the bag to show me the bee.. AND...... THAT FREAKING BEE WAS STILL ALIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I bloody hell jumped from my chair lor!!!!!!!!!! den the mommy laughed.. grrrr~

I have phobia of almost everything.. from dogs n cats, to insects, worms, reptiles.. as long as they crawl or fly, or have more than 2 legs.. STAY AWAY FROM ME!!!!

Carrot Cake!!

YAY!!! Joy's gona ask kt to bring back the best carrot cake ever frm AUSSIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Shopping Spree!!

Went shopping with darling n tee yu today cos its PAY DAY!!!! YAY!!! haha.. Been quite some time already since our last crazy shopping spree.. so tt day when i saw our roster, me n darling both morning shift and tee yu was OFF!! so quickly ask if they wana go walk walk.. haha

Went to vivo with darling first after our shift.. and our first stop was ALDO.. omg!! they have so many many lovely shoes!!!! i almost couldn't resist the temptation can!! its like mission impossible for a shoe addict.. wahaha.. kept trying out the shoes while darling was deciding whether she shld buy her bag.. after every shoe i tried i jus said to myself, "no no.. must save money!!" haha.. so end up not buying anything frm there.. but darling bought her bag thou.. she kept asking me if she shld buy, but i noe she definitely end up buying it so i dun wana waste my time telling her too much! wahaha! i knew her too well la...

Then we went to La Senza next!! din wana shop for clothes first cos tee yu haven joined us yet.. if not den we'll be repeating u see.. haha.. been wanting to buy new bras for some time le but always no nice ones.. so went in to see see la.. but u noe, see see den try try, den wana buy!! hahaha!! had a really fun time trying out the bras with darling.. she took so many to try! and best of all was she took this nightie tts full of sequins sewn on top(the neh neh part) to try.. i almost died of laughter in the changing room lor!!! LOL!! its so damn bloody SONG(old fashioned)!!!!! like those ge-tai dress kinda thing u noe.. hahaha.. she say if next time she wear tt den she'll poke her husband to death.. haha!

shall show some pictures of wat i bought.. actually wanted to take the pictures of them, but darling taught me a way to do it.. post the pictures frm the official website instead.. haha.. looks nicer as its worn on the models.. i'm not gona take pic of myself wearing okays.. like who wana see sia.. lol!!

I have this thing for trying out coats when its near winter time.. erm.. not winter in sg thou.. haha.. i'll pretend i'm going to winter countries for holiday den try out the coats.. and i did the same at zara today!! haha.. this time i said i was going to, u noe, switzerland.. lol!! and there's this white trench coat i tried tt looked REALLY NICE!!! i so wana buy it can!! haha.. but i think i'll die of heat stroke if i wear it in sg..

after tt we jus went ard to shop shop but din buy anything lah.. nothing caught my eyes.. the clothes i tried were all sooo big even if its the smallest.. grr.. den we got hungry and decided to head to Himawari for our dinner!! gosh, i was craving for the sashimi the minute after we reserved the table lor! haha.. their sashimi is still the best so far.. always so fresh!!

initially we planned to go have small drink after dinner de.. but i was too tired le.. after so many mornings.. i almost fell asleep while eating! haha.. but we had a good time thou.. its always so fun out with the girls!! :)

Recently my poor darling everytime kena piss off by this particular SSN.. u know the "I go toilet for awhile ah", "I go inside take something hor", "I go sister office k..", "I go drink water ah".. Every 5 mins u'll hear a different excuse.. I seriously suggest she jus say directly, "I GO EAT SNAKE!!" haha!

Today is my turn!! Well, not exactly very pissed off by her today cos I'm kinda immune to her already.. I think I'll jus do wateva I'm supposed to do.. But I still need to say it out to make myself feel better.. haha..

Today was outside with Jumat and she's the K shift T3.. but I tell u.. I swear with my bloody arse I dunno whether she saw like 20 patients ever since she start shift till 2.30pm when I finish work.. It was like 12+ going to 1pm and Jumat was having break.. so theoretically its left with me and her at triage.. but I dunno why I was seeing ALL, EVERY PATIENT tt came in!! dunno where the hell she go to.. den after Jumat came back frm his break he brought in a lethargic child for resus.. RESUS LOR!!! and she's still not there.. the triage que jus suddenly build up.. u noe peak hours and they always like to come all at the same time.. den it was always 5-6 to be triage.. no matter how fast i see oso cannot clear the que!! the thing is.. MY BLADDER WAS ALMOST BURSTING!!!!!! I fucking hell was waiting for her to appear so tt at least i can run to the toilet to pee and come back triage.. until like 2.20pm den I finally hear her voice so I quickly finish triaging den RUN, I seriously RAN FOR THE DAMN TOILET LOR!!! kaozz!!! At first I tot nvm, going to knock off jus wait for the afternoon shift to come take over.. but if i wait one more second i think i'll pee at triage already, no need go toilet..

After I got myself relieved, went back to triage and saw my screen.. as usual la.. the patients i saw was like half the page but hers jus like 4-5.. kaozz.. how to meet the KPI standard??!!! LOL!!

If only I can draw as well like the stickgirl.. Then today I'll probably draw myself with a big aeroplane flying above me.. If you catch the ball.. Try using your imagination..

Just a note: Be thankful that I didn't blow up today ya..

Farewell prezzies for all!!

Heh heh.. guess whats my farewell prezzie for ppl in CE?? >>>> INJECTIONS!!! wahahaha.. yes! I went ard the whole dept today to jab everyone!! tts the flu vaccine we have once a year.. but cos there's like different strands n stuff, so its like jus few mths ago we had the "southern hemisphere flu vaccine" and this time round its the "northern hemisphere vaccine".. I think I explained it like ten thousand times today, everyone was asking how come must take vaccine again? *faints*

Never in my life jabbed so many ppl in one day before! I think I jus enjoy the look on their face when the vaccine is going in.. haha.. Oh well, totally understand how it feels okays.. the F word came out of me when michelle gave me the jab today (with patient and parents around.. haha).. tts how freaking painful it is.. Anyways, I had a really fun time jabbing everyone! The only person tt say its not painful is my darling!! haha.. I was telling her the needle cannot go in.. So she was waiting n waiting for me to poke her.. den when i say 'ok, done.' den she like, 'HUH??!! I tot u say cannot go in?? I'm still waiting for u to jab lor!!' hahaha.. ok, means my skill improved after jabbing so many ppl today.. yay!! hee~


p.s.
Finally signed the bond deed today.. Now I'll be caged in KKH for 2 years.. Oh, tts after 8 mths in NYP.. geez~

The Bitter Stickgirl

http://stickgal.blogspot.com

Intriguing.
Take a look at her explicit illustrations if u have time! :)

WIMP

Teddy wanted me to mention tt he jus made my day..

He said he missed me.. haha..

I think he's too stressed..

Its so not like him to say that..

:)

Okays, it did cheer me up a little thou..

Antidote

We finally found the antidote to our jinx-ness!!! haha.. was afternoon shift today and T2 with ziying.. actually the day before we looked thru the assignment book and realised we're both outside today, plus Ms Dan is K shift T3.. u noe all the sway ppl.. so i was telling ziying today we shall combine all our power and flood CE like nobody's business!! lol!! and the thing is, everyone is looking forward to see wat hell we can create! kak jah was saying "aiyo! today u n ziying outside ah! lucky i'm going home seh.. if not i die ah!" haha.. she's morning T1..

So I went to work all prepared to have like resus after resus and the que maybe always at 30 tt kinda thing.. but after we sat down, the triage was empty most of the time.. with maybe 1-2 pts once in a while.. we're even fighting to see cases lor!! haha.. like fastest fingers first.. *faints* Ms Dan was rolling her chair to n fro our counters to chit chat n talk nonsense.. haha.. the que was like 18-19 but tt was the 'leftovers' frm morning shift.. and u noe.. must see which senior doctor on lah.. so its not our problem at all tt the que was long.. heh~

By now can u see, the 3 of us together will 'anti-jinx' each other and the place will be peaceful!! haha.. so all the SSNs out there, pls put us all together at triage more often cos our power will ward off all evils!!! wahahaha!!

At first I thought was jus coincidental.. but after Ms dan left at 6pm, ziying started to call for resus!! haha.. but tt was an interesting case thou.. too interesting and rare till Dr Ang oso wanted to keep the ECG.. here's the story.. this 8 yr old boy came in with the complain of vomiting and abdominal pain. no past medical conditions. clinically looks well, not dehydrated. abit small size for his age but tts not like a big issue. but the heart rate was way too low.. it was always 50+ at triage, so ziying brought him in to resus to double check. still the same, in fact it even dropped to 30+. so called for resus of cos.. haha.. after they put him on cardiac monitoring, realised tt the child was actually having complete heart block (a.k.a 3rd degree heart block)!! i mean, cardiac arrhythmias are not so common in children unless they're congential.. and plus the child was previously well! haha.. so u see, tts the good point of being a jinco.. u learn alot.. lol!

Anyways, they din give anything to the child lah.. as in no medications or watsoeva.. jus standby some atropine and adrenaline.. then quickly sent the child up to CICU.. and according to ziying, the whole code team was up there waiting for the boy to arrive at CICU already!! haha.. and started doing the 2D echo once the pt reached and after tt sent to OT for the transcutaneous pacer.. talking abt 2D echo, I personally hated it.. its so painful thou its non-invasive, and my chest got bruised after doing it okays.. lucky my valves weren't prolapsed, if not i think i'll have to go thru tt hell like so many many times lor!!

after tt resus it sort of started to flood lah.. i say sort of cos the docs are actually seeing quite fast.. so the que din build up too much..

Just received the enrolment package frm NYP today.. hai.. seeing tt envelope made me like... i dunno.. makes everything seemed more real maybe.. it was like living in a dream since the day sister tor told me abt it.. I'm happy but at the same time, jus getting more n more stressed.. wat if i can't perform as well like in diploma time? i noe sister tor sort of have high hopes for me.. frm wat she's been telling me recently.. hai.. i just hope i can really do well and move towards my goal..

BrokenBack

ARGH!!!!!! never am i gona stay over at chalets ANYMORE!!! not unless they change ALL their beds.. kaozz.. the pokey bed almost broke my spine can!! darling n tee yu can acutally fall asleep in tt thing!! *faints* it just made me love my bed even more.. my own nest is still the BEST!! nowonder my sis always likes to sleep on my bed!!!

our triage counter

was reading darling's blog and saw this pic she took earlier.. heh~ come to think of it.. i think i haven't taken any pics of our workplace for the longest time..

haha.. abit lame to post the same pic as darling's blog.. but this is where i sat after darling left me, all alone at 0130hrs.. lol!! took over her counter cos T1 was jus super freezing cold!!

hai.. when is night shift ever gona end??!!! i miss my phone.. :(

Lady luck

Was already dragging myself to work tonight.. then on the bus I realised.. I FORGOT TO BRING MY PHONE AGAIN!!!!! like for the dunno how many times lor!! hai.. now I feel so handicapped without my phone.. grr~ why am I so BLUR??!!!!

Tonight I'm out at triage with kak jah.. again, the 2 jinx out in full force.. haha.. everyone was asking us to "behave" tonight.. but then again, just as we came out from report, we're 'seeing stars' already.. heh~ okays.. I'm talking abt the ambulance la.. its a post fit case.. not too bad, so to speak.. after tt as usual pts keep coming in lor.. then there was this allergic reaction kid.. he's wheezing la.. but otherwise he's comfortable, spO2 99%.. the periorbital oedema wasn't tt bad to me.. anyways I sent in as a 9, but who noes he was brought out to resus by [ehem..] her majesty.. *faintz* after puffing him in resus, was brought back to obs2 again.. seriously got no comments for tt..

then after tt there was this father tt came running in frantically to me n said his son was having a 'heart attack'!! haha.. seriously i've nv seen a child having 'heart attack' before la.. so i ran out to his car with him to take a look.. i was expecting the child to be grasping his chest and in distress.. but he was jus sitting in the car, pale n weak and doing nothing.. so i asked if he has any medical condition.. then mommy gave me his discharge summary and realised he's known to have SVT[supraventricular tachycardia] and some congenital heart problem.. jus then darling came out to take a look too.. den when i told her is SVT, she went to the child and wanted to CARRY HIM OUT OF THE CAR!!! lol!!! tt boy is 15 yrs old lor!! and she wanted to carry him with 2 hands!! haha! after she realised she can never do it den she asked the father to help carry him to the wheelchair.. LOL!! after which we quickly push him to resus rm..

me n darling were expecting tt boy to be tubed[intubated] and den do a cardiovert or smth cos his BP was kinda low and he's pale looking.. but they jus gave adenosine and he was discharged eventually.. heh..

oh.. the docs tonight are not very fast.. or maybe there's jus too many pts.. the que is moving ever so slowly.. with tt of cos u get angry parents yelling at the nurses station, bugging at us, thinking tt way they can see the doc faster.. haha.. try harder maybe.. :P

the stubborn me was trying to type my entry at triage again.. haha.. and see wat happened.. now i hafta finish typing during my break.. and the time now is like 0430hrs.. for the whole night i never had like 5 mins free of pts lor!! geez..

Oh God.. pls make me remember to bring my phone out next time ya..

Renovation!!

Okays.. CE is finally EXPANDING!! with the number of pts everyday the current place is simply too... small.. ya.. so they're doing it in phases cos 'we're still running a service' ms pang said.. grr..

And i thought sister said they'll probably start the thing like 1-2 weeks later.. but they're already doing it like NOW.. erm.. ya, few days ago.. so the first thing they started on is our staff toilets!!! shifted ALL our lockers and closed down the toilets.. n now my locker is in the tea room!! tea room's left with 2 miserable tables, plus they cordoned the area next to the entrance.. imagine the space left.. *faints* and cos we have no more toilets left theoretically, hafta go all the way to CE annex to change.. walk pass the waiting area and let the pt, parents see that u're coming/going, on/off duty..worse has yet to come.. wat if u're LATE??!!! u just hafta run here n there like a siao za bor to change into ur uniform and to keep ur barangs... how interesting..

Oh ya.. they shifted the lockers on thursday, which was my off day.. so they opened our lockers and dump everything inside those black plastic bags and stuff the whole thing back into ur locker.. and my uniform become like 'giam chai' lor!! but looking on the brighter side.. actually they sort of forced me to tidy up my locker lah.. haha.. i realised i'm jus full of rubbish!! at home and at work, my space is always full of.. ya, rubbish.. my sis knows best.. lol!!

Anyways, i'll just need to tahan this for another 1 mth and off i go for my adv dip!! and when i'm back frm studies the place will be fully renovated.. plus i dun need to go thru JCI!! how wonderful is tt!! wahahaha!!

*grinz*

He just brightened up my day.. :D

I miss u baby...

Tired

Sick and tired of all thats happening...

Just put everything to an end..

Let me have a peaceful and smooth sailing life..

Back to school..

Sister tor called just now.. I'm going for the adv dip..

Thats one more step nearer to my dream..

Since the day I graduated I've been eyeing at this..

Now its finally here..

But..

Why am I so moody?

UNDERtriage

Hate the feeling when u under-triage someone.. hai.. and of all days it has to be TODAY!! was super tired frm the furniture fixing yesterday, whole body aching, my hands cramping and my palms are bruised frm the screwing(sounds kinky eh? heh~)!!! some more this morning was bloody hell busy!! i think i sent in like more than 20 '9' cases lor! all breathless and post fit.. Ms Dan was cursing me when she saw me at break.. lol!!

saw this girl, 14 yr old.. came in with fever for 10 days and cough.. air entry wasn't that good but no wheezing.. slightly tachycardic (at 130+ bpm) but cos there's fever.. but her mom kept saying she has this uprolling of eyes tingy and at first i thought was fit.. so i asked whether she can respond to ppl's call and she said yes.. tt girl was also aware of wats happening to her.. but the thing is i didn't see wat sort of uprolling of eyes tt is, so i din think much abt it.. sent her in as a '9' cos her saturation was 94%..

so abt 30mins later this girl was brought in to resus as ordered by HER MAJESTY.. she said tt girl was very pale, and apparently her pulse went up to 280+ at obs 2.. the thing is, how can a big girl like her have a pulse rate of almost 300??!!! its abit ridiculous lor.. so she was as usual, shouting and asking who triaged tt girl.. jus happened i was in the resus room so i answered 'me'.. kaozz.. if u know her u shld be able to imagine her charred face.. so she was like "wats the parameters when she first came in? how come this wasn't a resus case??"

okays.. tt girl really did looked more pale as compared to when i saw her at triage.. so u know being the perfectionist obviously i dun feel good lah.. plus her majesty and tt uncle keep saying until like i made some grave mistake or wat.. but veron mommy was telling me if its her who triaged she oso wun put resus.. hai.. was really bothered by this case for the rest of the shift..

So tt girl was actually having OGC.. oculogyric crisis.. is a dystonic reaction to certain drugs and/or medical conditions. The term "Oculogyric" refers to rotating of eyeballs but several other responses are associated with the crisis.

Then during my break met CP Lee in the pantry so i asked him abt the case lor(he's the one who saw tt girl).. okays.. this part made me feel a little better.. he said the girl din look pale to him at all.. the x-ray wasn't very nice(she had pneumonia), but she looked ok.. in fact if he's the boss den he wun wana uptriage the girl either.. he also said the OGC was just mild.. the main thing is still the pneumonia.. then he made tt disgusted face when we talked abt the boss tingy.. hee~

Talking abt CP Lee.. tt reminded me of smth.. haha.. the first thing tt came to my mind when i first saw him was>> He looked like teddy!! lol!! i'm not the only person who said so.. tee yu agreed with me too lor!! and everytime i see him makes me wana laugh.. cos den i'll think of the real teddy.. keke.. okays.. i know what u're thinking.. he's married alrealy la.. some more his wife oso doctor.. haha.. :P

Well, moral of today's post is: I shall think twice, think thrice before putting the category for every child i triage frm now on!!! even if its just fever, cough and runny nose!!! Grrr~

Night Offs!!

Yay! I'm done with my 2 nights! hee.. feels as if I did 4 nights can.. super tired.. was having ptosis towards the end of shift just now.. lol! What a disgrace I am right.. Bing ling's doing 4 nights and she's like super alert lor!! haha.. I think I probably used up all my energy during the start of shift.. was running up and down in the dept like a mad woman cos u know - busy.. but this round of night shift was good cos we have all the 'our ppl' working together.. haha..

Germac 学姐 heated up the muffins tt tee yu bought after our 2nd break.. Its v nice lor!! haha.. nice and warm, with the chocolate melted at the centre.. aww~ how sinful it is! lol! so we jus nua at the counter and enjoy our muffins..

Thats 学姐 with her mouthful of muffins.. haha.. supposed to catch her with her mouth wide opened thou.. hee~

p.s. I'm thinking if I shld upload the pics.. heh~ cos ppl will know tt we're eating snake! *faints*

Tonsilitis

Augmentin makes my tummy churn churn churn..
But thats the only abx that works for me..
For my irritating tonsils..
Why did I get dad's genes for that?
Grr~
*faints*

Fate
–noun
1. something that unavoidably befalls a person; fortune; lot.
2. the universal principle or ultimate agency by which the order of things is presumably prescribed; the decreed cause of events; time.
3. that which is inevitably predetermined; destiny.
4. a prophetic declaration of what must be.


Things happen for a reason. Don't you think so? But when it becomes inexplicable, more than often the attribution goes to the word 'fate'. "God has His plans." As what I would always tell myself. Not that I'm a devoted christian, neither do I have any 'true' religion to follow. Perhaps it's the influence I got in school. You know, back in SAC where we had religious classes, bible study and stuff. We pray to one God whether you're a catholic, buddhist or muslim. Thats what I learnt. I believe in God, but not of a specific religion. I talk to God. Okays, only when I'm desperate for help. hee~ Whatever it is, I'm still sticking to the point that God make things happen, and He has His reason for doing so.

I'm telling myself that this is all fated. Why did God make me realise my feelings only at this particular point of time, after it's been decided. Why didn't it occur when all along he was there? When all along he was there, no (actual)plans ahead. Perhaps I was being too cautious. Or perhaps I wasn't sure if those feelings I had were for real or was it out of loneliness, desperation or merely just an infatuation. I didn't want to 'make use' of him, so to speak.

I'm telling everyone out there that I didn't shed a single tear last night. Though I was expecting myself to. Should I say that what happened in the past has made me a stronger person? To better control my emotions? (Well, Jovi said he see that I've grown stronger. *shrugs*) I haven't been a real fan of seperation. I don't think anyone is. *faints* I remember how I cried my eyes and lungs out when Sher and I had been streamed to different classes in Sec 2. Then when she had to follow her mom to Canada. Next was when Joy left for Aussie. That was less than a year ago. We all agreed to send her off happily as she's going there to persue her dream. But that night, we all went home with red and puffy eyes and a bad sniff. I think I really had grown alot ever since (you know what happened). Not physically of cos. *rolls eyes* Mentally and emotionally, rather.

Well, we'll see how it goes. Thats all can be said right now. :)

Lost...

Seriously speaking.. am i really lost? or am i sure of my own doings? probably its emptiness tt i'm feeling right now..

I'm jus not in the mood to type...

我想我应该轻轻放开你的手，

我却没有力气这么做...

MY MSN IS DOWN... HELP!!!!!!!

Happy like a bird!

Oh, tts wat kelvin said to me when i waved goodbye at him last night.. but refused to tell me wat he meant when i asked him.. geez.. okays.. i must admit i was really feeling elated yesterday thou it was a REALLY LONG day..

Morning shift and like since when it never happened, it was BUSY BUSY BUSY!! When kak jah went for her break and i was all alone at triage, the moment she left, 3 pts came together.. then when i was seeing the first of the 3, another 2 came.. i raced as i triage but still they jus keep coming!! until i really cannot tahan i called inside for another person to come to my rescue! haha.. first time i called in for help.. Grr..

Then after the first resus tt i called was the start of HELL!! the que started to flood.. den so many many ambulance!! kaozz.. the most irritating case of all was this HFMD pt.. i saw as i stand at the ambulance bay all the paramedics were wearing masks.. and its N95 mask can!!! so i tot got some infectious case or wat.. for one moment i tot i need to wear my PPE too.. haha.. den when i ask wat case is it then the AO say HAND FOOT MOUTH.. i almost fainted in front of him lor!!! "HFMD y need to wear mask?" i asked.. [FYI: HFMD is spread thru direct contact, not air borne.. duh~] then when the AO brought the wheelchair to the boy i was like.. "cannot walk ah?" come on lor, tt boy is NINE YRS OLD already lor!!! and he said he can walk! kaozz.. dunno wat all these AOs are doing sia.. and i dunno y HFMD need to take ambulance.. *faintzz*

Met teddy after shift.. heh~ to give him the scarf and camera la duh.. he's officially leaving on the 4th.. tts a night flight.. hai.. i'm on E shift.. anyways, i still think its better if i dun go send him off.. i think i'll cry like some hysterical being at the airport and be such a disgrace..

I thought to myself, since we have not much time left, in fact very little, each time we're together it shld always be happy so that at least the memories won't be bad.. I tried really hard and i almost din make it.. My heart was aching so badly as i laid in my comfort zone.. and for one moment my tears was almost falling.. took a deep breath and i was glad it din fall..

He was like a little boy when he meddled with the scarf.. tt made me happy.. :)

Went 'Le Bar-ing' with darling and tee yu after darling knocked off.. Well, we went to the 2nd level cos u know, ground floor was full.. somehow it was better cos easier to have our girls talk.. haha.. halfway talking darling suddenly paused and was starring at smth.. it was teddy!! haha.. i swear my heart skipped when i saw him lor! well, it wasn't in his plan i tot.. den he went up and sang with Ivan and his friend.. first time i'm seeing his shyness!! haha..

After tt me n darling went up to sing too.. first time singing with a live band leh!! haha.. but we jus spoil the whole thing lor! cos can't remember the lyrics! hahaha.. den we so nervous can!! darling said if we go join the 'don't forget your lyrics' sure gone case lor! LOL!!

I think we shall have more 'outings' like this! wat u think darling?? heh~

維多利亞的秘密

Haha.. tts the chinese way of saying Victoria's secret for those who can't read.. yes!! my orders have arrived!!!! i noe darling is a real fan of VS and she's been 'promoting' VS to me since like dunno how many yrs ago.. haha.. but only recently den i started to order their stuff and even so all i ordered were like the body lotions, body scrub, EDT blah blah.. and the reason i started ordering was becos MY DAD wanted me to order... lol!!! yes, u read clearly, its my PAPA!! wahaha.. he said he liked the smell of the hand cream and wanted me to order like half a dozen! i said he siao where got ppl buy so many at one time de!! haha..

Anyways, was reading the newsletter tt VS mailed me the other day and they were having this promotion tingy.. any $30 spent u'll get a traveller's bag for FREE! haha.. and it looked nice too! plus there's another promotion with some discounts.. so obviously i must 发挥 my 'auntie' 精神 and not let this opportunity slip frm my hands!! wahaha!

Lucky the dresses can fit.. so worried abt the size tingy cos nv ordered before and joy was telling me the other time she ordered and the dress was so super big!! haha..

Oh, there's another thing tt i bought the previous time and din have time to take photo of it.. haha... this sweet little thing is so pretty and sexy!!! its a body shimmer in case u're wondering wat da hell is tt thing.. hee~

Isn't it pretty?? haha..

I'm just a simple person.. Easily satisfied.. :)

Its PMS again.. I noticed since a few months back i'm starting to have PMS.. Its always tt time of the month i'm easily agitated and moody at most times.. not that i have this problem all along.. Grr~

I'm SO proud of MYSELF!!!!!

FINALLY!!! My FIRST ever completed piece of knitting!!!!!!! I'm jus super proud of myself lor!! LOL!

Took me like 1 mth to finish knitting this piece of scarf.. heh~ at first i tot i wun be able to complete the whole thing.. well, tt always happened in the past.. haha.. never once did i complete a single thing.. always knit halfway den leave it there to grow dust and rot.. haha.. i simply have no patience to sit there and do the same action over and over again for ten thousand times la.. oh, then i found out the reason behind this.. its my mom lah.. haha.. i inherited her genes!! she said she use to do crocheting but after doing for awhile she'll jus leave it there to rot and like me, she never completed a single project too!! heh~ mother and daughter alike eh? haha..

So now that its completed, at least my hardwork is paid off lah.. u know, all the muscle aches, cramped fingers, backache, crossed eyes.. lol! okays.. actually its not so bad lah.. maybe jus a little of each only.. wahaha... but there's this great sense of achievement la.. *grinzz*

Since its my first ever self knitted scarf.. of cos will have abit of flaws lah.. erm.. maybe not as nice as those they sell out there.. hope he dun mind.. hee..

Oh, and I bought the camera too.. went to PS today to get yarn for the tassel so tot might as well jus buy the camera.. haha.. actually i already have smth in mind la.. but still asked if he had any preference since he'll be the one using it.. like wouldn't it be better if its smth he likes/wanted? anyways, he said no and this is wat i got...

Okays.. with my budget only can get this.. plus i'm not sure if my sis wana share oso.. hee.. the barangs are all the 'free gifts'.. haha.. erm.. i think the only alluring thing there is the memory stick.. 4GB memory stick for free actually is quite worth it.. heh~ ok.. i'm an easily satisfied person so its considered good to me.. :) the only thing is.. hope he likes it lor.. but if he dun like den oso LL.. haha..

Its just me..

okays.. we just had another intubation earlier on.. heh~ its me again la.. wat to do.. i sit at triage always backside itchy will call for resus.. lol! this time round was a small little baby.. she's already blue when she first came in la.. not as in collapse but cyanosed.. at first when the grandma was carrying her i tot the baby collapsed lor!! cos her colour really not good plus she's sleeping.. but later on the father said she has some congenital heart problem den i tot maybe thats normal for her.. so was asking the history frm the dad and he said baby hasn't PU since like 11am.. tts 12hrs lor!!! and not feeding well either.. and the perfusion was really bad.. so the more i see the baby the more i feel smth is not right.. so asked doris to take a look at the child.. den she say bring to resus.. haha.. so we called lor.. den daryl came in oso.. he's not in CE now la.. for a few mths.. but he's on call tonight so he was at his office doing some stuff and heard resus so came in to take a look.. haha.. so the 3 docs were trying so hard to get a plug in but after like 10 thousand times still cannot get in.. but they wanted to intubate her cos she's in mix acidosis la.. so all kan cheong and poke the poor baby so many times! but no choice ma.. so finally got one in den quickly intubated and baby was eventually sent to NICU.. and wan yee's on call tonight too!! so long nv see her.. haha.. now she's reg le.. nice to see her up there.. she like so pro when we transferred the baby over.. really got the reg "sey" lor!! haha..

i think i really cannot write my entries when doing triage.. i tried like so many times and everytime cannot complete a single post.. they jus keep coming in after every sentence i type.. haha.. probably this is making me jinxed too.. wahaha.. shld have brought my knitting to work.. now i have nothing do.. grr~

Sweet little moment

You know the thing that I like about working with kids.. Although most times they're screaming and wailing when they see you(thats because kids are more fretful when they're not well), but once in a while you get those sweet little things smiling and playing with you.. It just makes your day.. :)

Was afternoon shift yesterday, and for the first time in I can't remember how long (probably as long as when I first joined), the queue was just 1-2! So imagine the peace okays.. So I was at the counter, and this small little girl, probably abt 1-2 yr old, walked in and was standing at the red door.. and suddenly, she gave me her ever so SWEET SMILE and started waving at me! the thing is, I was wearing a mask and kids always get frightened when they see that.. but not this sweet young thing.. so I walked up to her, and wanted to play with her a little.. then I put my hand out, wanted to shake hand with her, and you know what she did? She took my hand and salam(kissing of the hand) me! She's a malay la duh~ In case for those who don't know what that means.. For the malays, thats their way of paying respect for the elders.. You tell me, is she SWEET or what??!! She just made me feel so touched lor.. At such a young age she knows how to do that.. I just felt like hugging and kissing her at that moment! haha.. too bad her granddad was there and he like got this look on his face.. hee.. what a lovely girl she is.. if only all kids are like her..

ANNOUNCEMENT: I'M AFRAID OF DOGS!! STAY AWAY FROM ME!!!

has anyone ever suffered frm chronic hangover? haha.. i think i might have.. was like having overlapping hangovers.. duh~ woke up yesterday with a super bad headache but still went to work anyways..

was out with baby @ Le Bar(again) on friday.. she was having attachment at CICU and its her last day of attachment!! tt calls for somewhat a celebration! lol!~ din call for reservation thou.. tot of trying our luck and see if we can 'walk-in'.. haha.. but we sort of have a back-up plan lah.. so after we reach, as usual and as expected, the place was FULL!! but i think lady luck was with us.. heh~ wisnie was there with patrick and the guys.. so i whiningly asked if we could sit with them.. haha! of cos they said yes la.. who on earth can stand my whine sia.. lol!!

Darling was so drunk tt night she FRENCH KISSED ME!!!!! haha.. jus before i got up the cab.. den i like pushed her away lor!! lol! ppl around were all starring at the 2 crazy girls.. haha.. darling say obviously they're shocked cos 2 pretty girls are kissing each other like nobody's business.. if say one of us more boyish kind den at least can understand.. wahaha!! anyways.. her phone went flat on her after i left and she said she went ard asking ppl to lend her their phone!! in the end teddy lent her his.. baby said he's so funny.. like blur, dunno wats happening.. lol! oh.. and she became a merlion after tt!!! hahaha! i remembered the one time i became a merlion at the old place.. was so SHITTY!! so i can understand how baby felt at tt time.. haha!

So after work went over to wisnie's place for our 'home-drinking session'.. haha.. din feel like going at first.. but she wanted me to buy some shoju over so.. jus went lor.. it din occur to me that she jus got a new DOG!! kaozz!!! if i know i wouldn't have went lor!!! and her sis was like carrying the dog right up to my face after knowing i have PHOBIA OF DOGS!! i was screaming and running for my life!! lol!~ the worst has yet to come.. later Fion came.. and then... she brought her DOG along too!!! *faintzz* hers was a much bigger dog.. dun ask wat breed it is okays.. i noe nuts abt dogs.. guess was the same as wisnie's.. so the 2 dogs got excited and was jumping abt in the hse and i bloody hell freaked out lor!! they kept asking me to touch the dogs hoping i'll somehow overcome the fear like OVERNIGHT!.. wth.. a phobia will stay with u for the rest of ur life maybe.. well, unless u seek treatment or wat lah.. but i dun think anyone will be so free and so freaking boliao to go n seek treatment for phobia.. hee~

anyways, went off quite early last night cos i was really really really tired and plus i was K shift today.. been out like almost everyday for the whole week and i'm jus super shagg can.. woke up today with an even heavier head.. lol!~ well, serve me right lah.. super busy shift today!! kaozz.. can u imagine with 3 person doing triage and the que is still like 9-10 everytime u press the damn que system!!! all the singaporeans stay home and watch olympics can!!! i swear i was typing till my hands cramp lor!! and all the f*cking parents keep coming to ask if they can see the doctor IMMEDIATELY!!! and they dun care whether u have patients in ur counter, they jus BARGE IN!!! at least u wana check the waiting time or ask for priority u dun be so bloody hell RUDE LAH!!! argh!!!!!!!!!!!! and its always the happy and active child's parents asking for the freaking priority.. the real sick ones jus sit quietly and wait for their turn.. come on lah.. i dun think u dun have eyes to see for urself how many patients we have lor!! the whole dept was like MAD HOUSE!! hai.. shall not comment further..

Baby's coming back to work next week!!! haha.. finally after the long wait.. at least my life wun be so miserable.. hee~

NEW staff lounge @ KKH!!

kaozz!! the new staff lounge is bloody hell nice and classy can!!! i jus saw it frm baby's blog... haha.. haven been there yet thou sister tor keep asking us to go take a look!! go see the pictures baby taken ya.. and see if it looks anything like a HOSPITAL PLACE!!! heh~ there's a bar counter too!! but i doubt they sell drinks there.. erm.. not like soft drinks kinda drink.. ya get wat i mean k.. lol!!~ if they have i sure go there like all the time fo small drinks lor!! better still if there's some cute bartenders.. wahahaha!! okays.. shall go prepare for work.. ciaoz!

Blissful

Thats how it felt like as i dwarf in his embrace..

Contented, even if its just for this short while..

Hope thats not too much to ask for.. :)

Its august already.. And like always, u get more and more emotional as the days past, when the date gets nearer.. Its that kind of mixed feelings.. U feel happy for him cos this is what he always wanted, its his dream.. yet, u can't help but feel sad cos he's leaving.. Leaving for good or perhaps he'll be back, there's no definitive answer..

Things are constantly running through my mind.. I couldn't help but wonder, what would it be like if say, we're together? Its a definite NO for him to stay.. But, would there be any promises? Or maybe some change of plans? Oh well, those were again my nonsensical thoughts.. Painting my beautiful picture and building my ever so huge castle in the air.. Hee~

Life goes on, whether u like it or not.. In life, u can't expect every single thing to flow as u wish, or things to happen jus because u said so.. Afterall, who are u to have such power? haha.. u jus have to accept whatever that comes along, and perhaps, it could be a blessing in disguise? Perhaps this is just a passing phase and perhaps in years to come...... perhaps, perhaps, perhaps..

Whatever it is, he'll have all my wishes and i really hope he can do well in this.. Cos I want him to.. :)

Scatterbrainie

I forgot to bring my phone out today...
WTH~ :(

down..

okays.. things has been going awry for the past few days.. everything seemed to be pissing me off.. every little thing.. including teddy.. i jus got pissed by him last night for the slightest thing.. he said i din tell him i was on leave.. but i remembered very clearly i did told him and not like once.. but he insisted.. said i din mention at all and not even in my msgs.. i got pissed and went thru my past msgs and forwarded the evident to him.. thats how he made me angry at like 1am can.. and i'm ignoring him.. well, i was angry not becos he din remember a thing abt my leave.. i was mad at him for the accusation.. i got so furious my tears fell.. u know, i cry when i'm in extreme anger.. oh, watever~

then this afternoon, the damn computer kena VIRUS!! kaozz.. i dunno wat exactly it is.. some spyware or trojan or wateva.. and i couldn't even go into internet explorer!! and i panicked la obviously.. was having palpitations and my hands were trembling! haa~ never epxerienced such bad hysteria, those that happened during bad resus wasn't at all this bad.. okays.. abit exaggerating.. haha.. anyways.. i got dad to bring it down to the computer shop before i really go bonkers.. hee~ no choice wat.. not as if i'm some computer expert to fix the damn thing.. i'm probably better in jus online shopping.. haha! hope they can fix it like tmr? argh!!! i'm so lifeless without my com!!!

finally back at work tonight! rotting is not tt interesting a pastime afterall.. but i did enjoy my deserved rest lah.. haha.. okays.. tts contradicting.. my assignment is like ........... i dunno wat to say.. tonight is still not too bad.. outside with rakiyah.. told them to kill me at 0730hrs later so i dun hafta come to work.. shall not go into too much details abt tmr's assignment.. jus hope tt it'll be a smooth shift... PLEASE!!!~~

Pathetic

Life is.
Try killing someone and say sorry after that.
Get the picture?
Duh~

Any rich man out there???

Nice?? someone buy me tt.. i'll consider marrying u.. wahaha!

I'm praying for you baby..

p.s. never mind what people say as long as our conscious is clear. thats how you stay strong. :)

Happiness

Really touched by what darling said in her recent post.. abt how richard is the angel sent by her daddy from heaven to walk her through the rest of her life.. i cried as i was reading.. you know, i think its true when people say that a daddy will always protect his girl no matter what happened, and if a guy cannot protect you and take care of you the way your daddy did, then never marry this person.. well, this i believe to a certain extent.. nobody, even the best guy you think you ever met, can ever replace your daddy..

I was being brought up with my daddy pampering and spoiling me.. he always wants the best for me and my sis.. the best food, the best clothes.. a certain thing we wanted and he'll get the best quality of it for us, never minded the price.. we're not from a well to do family that is.. thats his way of loving us.. not much words spoken, but deep in our hearts, we know he loves us..

Perhaps thats how it affected the way i see a man.. the father figure.. sometimes i'm really envious of my mom.. to have met such a wonderful man in her life, and to start a family with him.. i couldn't help but wonder, will i ever meet somebody like him? to provide me his unconditional love, to take care of me like his little girl..

With my wilful thinking, a lot of times i thought, maybe by showing it first will i get the kind of love i always wanted.. and in attempts to do so, it always ended up with me getting hurt.. the torment was simply too much to bear.. i've since learnt to relinquish the idea, the search for the perfect father figure, and come to realise that no one can ever replace my daddy..

I think daddy wanted the same as i did.. for me to meet someone who loves me the way he does.. i still remember very clearly how his tears fell when he learnt about what happened to sis.. my heart ached so badly i thought i was dying from it.. never do i want to see that happen ever again.. that i promised myself..

I'm really happy for darling.. that she'd found her happiness.. being so blessed and blissful with her hubby.. well, if yours has yet to come, why not feel happy for the one you love first right? :)

4 NIGHTS again...

yes.. i'm doing 4 nights like again can.. haha! been doing 4 nights quite often nowadays.. this yr i mean.. before tt i've only did once 4 nights and i tot i hated it.. haha.. but now i think its quite ok.. after u get used to it.. and what can be more alluring than the rest days u get after tt? haha.. the thing is.. i tend to always fall sick after the 4 nights.. *faintz* hahaha! okays.. like half the time lah.. the other time i had this really bad tummy ache and had to lie in bed for 2 days lor! 5 days off frm work and i stayed home becos of tt.. wat an arse right?

today is the 3rd night le!! one more to go.. and today i'm outside with kak jah again.. *fingers crossed* haha.. wish me luck ya..

i'll be on leave again!! what shall i do for the next 2 weeks den? weeEEE!!~

spooky~

okays.. the freakiest thing jus happened.. was walking into T2 with my coffee when the computer screen went into internet explorer by itself and then went on to the yahoo page.. mouse din move at all.. so did the pointer.. all these happened in like 1 second.. freaked out.. but i'm still using the damn bloody com now.. hee~ duh..

SICK

I feel so much like puking.. someone pass me Ondens please? :D

zzZZZ

w-a-i-t-i-n-g f-o-r m-y n-i-g-h-t s-h-i-f-t t-o e-n-d...

My Latest TOY!!!!

YAY!!!! Finally i got it!! hee~ I've been EYEING this baby for MONTHS okays!! haha.. I'm LOVIN it to the core of my arse!!!!

Look at how pretty my baby is!! haha.. its small(well, smallest of all touchscreen phones in the market at this point) and stylish.. looks like a PDA but not exactly a PDA lah.. haha.. but its good for idiots like me cos its really user friendly.. i managed to play with it without even flipping the user manual!! plus its functions are not bad! okays.. i'm not someone who needs fancy functions in a phone la.. haha.. basics are there.. 5MP camera with face detection and anti-shake, fully touchscreen(erm.. except for the call buttons.. duh~), 3.5G, web browser.. surfing is really fast lor!! haha.. music and video player, FM radio, organizer, blah blah.. the only thing is it doesn't come with a stylus.. which means... ALOT OF FINGERPRINTS!!!! hahaha.. but the sensitivity is ok lah.. acceptable.. thou sometimes it gets abit too sensitive.. well, tts kinda like expected of a touchscreen right.. imagine if its not so sensitive.. den u'll press till the screen crack maybe.. LOL!!~

Anyways.. I'm so lovin my new phone!!! weeEEEE!!!!!

New Phone!!!

I'm going to buy my new phone tmr!!! yay!! finally its OUT!!! Wee~

MY HERO(S)!!!!

those who know me well enough will know tt i have this fetish for FIREFIGHTERS!! heh~ and today, i had the feeling of being the HAPPIEST woman in the world!!! haha! had a good time seeing SO MANY MANY firefighters at one time!!!

was at triage today and at abt 12noon, suddenly i saw a RED RINO stopping at our ambulance bay!! haha.. i was with a patient but suddenly my heart started beating very fast!! 'what's tt red rino doing outside CE??!!' i thought.. then, few seconds later, tt bunch of firefighters frm the red rino came RUNNING thru the triage and into the resus room!! YES! they were running as though there was a BIG FIRE in the resus room!!! hahaha.. i got a shock! so did the patient who was with me..

few minutes later came an ambulance and i tot there was a pt in it.. but i was with another pt so din go out to receive the 'case'.. but i looked thru the glass wall and saw no pt on the stretcher! they were here together with the red rino.. haha..

so after i cleared triage(i dunno y i was alone), i went in to resus rm to take a look.. for obvious reason.. haha!! it was damn chaotic inside!! so many *gasp* firefighters plus the paramedics!! haha.. doctors, nurses.. even ADN Pang and the DDN was there together with sister tor and sister lee.. i think there were like 20-30 ppl in the resus rm.. they were all crowding at something.. too many ppl i can't even see what they're crowding at.. haha.. so i asked sister lee what happened.. then she said, the kiddo's finger got stuck in this metal steamer tingy and no matter what they do it jus couldn't get out.. so the SCDF was called to see if they have any special equipments to cut tt metal thing up..

seeing so many ppl in the resus rm and nobody at triage, i returned to my triage counter.. then.. 2 policemen walked in.. and then into resus rm again.. 'why do we need policemen in there?' i thought.. haha.. so the firefighters and the paramedics were walking in and out of the resus room all the time.. making my heart pounding so fast each time they walk past.. haha!! but i had pts keep coming in so i had to try very hard to keep my 'cool'.. [i was almost going crazy!!! wahaha!]

after tt i went for my break and came back.. they're STILL in there trying to free the finger.. and to my 'HORROR'.. the DART team was there too!!! like.. IS THERE AN EARTHQUAKE???!!! hahaha.. for one small finger they had to activate soooooo many ppl??!!! in the end i think they took like abt 3 hrs to free tt finger.. hahaha.. frm those really HUGE equipments to the small ones.. whateva can be used they used it.. haha!

after the finger was freed, all started to pack up and go.. sister lee thanked the sgt frm the DART team and the police.. then i jokingly asked sister lee how come one small finger need to activate so many ppl.. den she said she oso dunno.. she jus called 995 for help and the firefighters came.. paramedics came.. and even the police and DART team came!! hahaha.. Juls was saying she even saw those big big fire engines outside KKH too!! jus tt the fire engine was too BIG and can't drive into B1.. haha!! then the police explained tt once 995 is activated all these will follow too.. haha.. thou its abit like misusing the authority and manpower, it din matter to me at all!! haha.. cos i get to see so many firefighters at one go!! [not to mention some quite cute ones.. wahaha!] like when do they come to hospitals if not for fire drill right?? hahaha... HAPPY HAPPY!!!

幸せ!!!!!!

I think I'm the most 幸福daughter in the world!!!! haha.. dad jus came back frm the Isetan supermarket with all the JAP GOODIES!!!! YES!! HE WENT ALL THE WAY TO ORCHARD JUST TO BUY SUSHI FOR ME!!!!! HAHAHAHA!! tell me who's more blessed than ME!!!

Well, lets not talk abt the 'BORING' sushi frm the first pic.. haha! Second one u see is the Goryokaku Monogatari(seafood bento).. that small little box of bento costs $22.90 okays!!! haha.. but i think its quite worth the money.. other than the Taraba crab meat and the salmon roe tts quite obvious, there's still like smoked tuna, sea urchin, and scallop sashimi hidden underneath tt pile of shredded crab meat.. haha!! For those who tried the Taraba crab(those giagantic crabs with super long legs..)before shld know.. how SWEET AND JUICY the meat taste!! one of its legs is enough to make u full lor!! my dad LOOOVVEE tt crab.. haha!

Third pic u see is my favourite!!! Do not be deceived by its look and think tt its the normal maki sushi u see everywhere.. IT IS NOT!!! look carefully and u'll see tuna sashimi!! big chunks of it!! this one is with the eel.. previously we had the ones with tuna and salmon sashimi.. tt tasted better i think.. but nevertheless.. I STILL LOVE IT!! hahaha..

Oh.. there's actually another thing dad bought.. the grilled scallop sticks!! haha.. I couldn't resist the temptation and munched it down before I could think of taking pictures!! hahaha!! the scallops are HUGE!!! I dunno what to compare it with.. haha.. its abt 4-5cm per scallop.. I'M NOT EXAGGERATING!!! I don't think I need to describe how it tastes.. haha!! Well, try it yourself if you don't mind the price! haha..

Hokkaido Fair's coming up in July at Tampines Mall!! for those who can't wait(like my dad), get the stuffs from Isetan supermarket then!! Enjoy!!

Outing!!

Brought mom and dad out for dinner yesterday together with jie! hee~ been such a LOOONNNGG time since we last went out as a family.. as in only the 4 of us, no extras.. haha! we planned to go Thai express ever since my last trip there with sis n gang due to my commendation of the LEGENDARY BEEF NOODLES!! haha! [see my previous post] okays, we RARELY eat out as a family cos my mom seriously can cook like thousand times better than any hawkers out there(well, this verdict doesn't come from ME only.. haha!), and plus my dad is really health conscious.. for the better of himself and US ya.. haha.. So this is really not a COMMON scene in our family..

Was really looking forward to it since my nights.. in fact, was looking forward to my 5 days off.. but i think bad luck followed me home frm work.. haha.. this always happens.. whenever i'm having long breaks frm work, like the whole stretch of day-offs and rest-days or on leave, i tend to fall sick.. this time it happened again!! my tummy ached for TWO DAYS!!! tt was long.. argh!!! can u imagine the whole weekend spent lying in bed and wasting ur time away when others are out there partying??!!! *angry* well, only person i can blame is myself.. for being so stubborn, not seeing a doctor when i'm not well.. hai.. and teddy's not working on saturday!!! someone pls pull me away frm the wall so i won't bang it.. :(

Anyways.. lucky i got better on sunday so we went out as planned.. went to the outlet at marina sq.. and because i haven't been eating for the past few days.. i was REALLY HUNGRY(as usual) even before we reach the restaurant!! so i announced tt i already decided what to eat when we reach and tt is my BEEF NOODLE SOUP!! but this time i'm gona try the vermicelli.. haha!!

As soon as we reached the place, we quickly made our orders and waited P-A-T-I-E-N-T-L-Y for our food to come.. In all we ordered a mini tom-yum seafood steamboat, olive rice, stir-fried beef with basil, yellow ginger chicken and of cos my beef noodles.. haha.. Pictures yet to come cos still in my jie's phone.. hee~

the waitress warned us abt the yellow ginger chicken cos its supposed to be super spicy.. 超辣she said.. haha! den we said never mind cos we have 2 malfunctioned tastebuds.. haha!! tts my mom n jie!! well, u shld see the way they take chilli.. and my mom's homemade chilli is well known for its 火辣指數!! LOL~ so we ordered anyway..

Overall the food we ordered were quite nice.. except for jie's olive rice.. she said its too salty.. din wana try it since she said its not nice.. hee~ now, time for the sentence of THE YELLOW GINGER CHICKEN!! haha.. the final say is>>> IT'S REALLY SPICY!!!! hahaha.. even my mom couldn't take it!! her face turned all red frm it!! hahaha.. like those comical characters turning RED when they eat something spicy.. first time i see it on a real person!! hahaha.. but she still managed to finish it lah.. haha..

After eating we went to shop shop a little(helps in digestion too!).. poor dad had to wait for us outside the shops all the time.. haha! ZARA is having sale!! and the basics are going at $9.90!!!!! tts super cheap can!!! since when u get things frm Zara at less then 10 bucks??!! BUT.. here comes the disadvantage of being skinny.. NO SIZE!!!! can't find a single S/XS(those colours i want) even after ransacking the whole rack!! so in the end only bought a cardigan i'd been eyeing for sometime and since its SALE(frm what darling always say..), TELL ME A THOUSAND REASON FOR NOT BUYING CAN??!!! haha.. mom got 2 tops and jie too.. haha!!

Feels good to be going out as a family.. have dinner.. shopping.. and paying for them.. haha!! think we shld do this more often!! heh~ I came to realise sg has HOG'S BREATH!! yay!! maybe tt'll be our next stop!! haha!! wonder if it'll taste the same as back in Aussie..

Happy happy!

Was having this colicky pain the whole of last night.. even till now.. think must be wind.. haha.. jus like those crying baby tt come in for colic.. so couldn't sleep the whole night cos the pain is like on and off.. den Teddy msged me early in the morning and was surprised i wasn't sleeping at tt time.. hee~ was nice to have someone showing their concern esp when u're not feeling tt well.. but i think i pissed him off cos he wanted me to go see doc but being the stubborn me i didn't want to.. haha.. i'm thinking if i shld get mist carb for myself laters.. hai.. see how ba.. shall take my breakfast first.. :)

Dear Dr Adrian..

It has been a great pleasure to have worked with you..

May you rest in peace..

when the jinxed meets the jinxed

my first night shift doing TRIAGE tonight!!! super stressed before coming to work lor.. the thought of doing triage during the wee hours jus scares the hell out of me.. wat if some parent comes running in with an unresponsive child or wat which they usually come during that time.. and furthermore i'm with kak jah lor!! the well-known jinxed! i myself is quite jinxed in the dept.. i think among my batch i met with the most number of BID(brought in dead) cases.. so imagine when me n kak jah combine power.. haha! jinxed+jinxed=super duper jinxed!!

i dunno y but there's this omen i have that it'll not be a smooth sailing shift tonight.. i even prayed to God to give me a good shift.. haha! and true enough.. the moment we come out frm report and sit at triage kak jah brought in a SVT(supraventricular tachycardia).. i haven't even seen a case lor!! haha! so i stayed to triage cos of the new assignment arrangement.. then a small crowd came.. THEN, jus when i was almost done triaging the last pt of tt small crowd, THE VHF ALARMED!!!!! i was abt to instruct the parents to proceed for registration, but due to shock i suddenly jus didn't know what to say to the parents.. haha! after like 5seconds i then regained my 'consciousness' and quickly ask the parents to register and i went to answer the VHF.. it was a 11yr old boy, near drowning with h/o congenital heart disease, conscious but cyanosed, ETA 10 mins.. tts the gist of it.. but the actual thing the control mentioned was much much more.. with like pulse rate, BP, SpO2 and even the B/C No.!!! haha.. first time i receive such a detailed VHF!!

afterwhich was to call for doctors to standby.. then the resus nurses all came.. so we were all busy preparing and didn't realise no doctor came.. and i tot the ETA was 10mins, but the ambulance arrived like less than 5 mins!! and no doctors still!! so i quickly called for doctors to resus again and now all 3 docs came..

i must say the pt's mom was really fantastic.. the story was, the child was playing with his siblings in the pool while the mom was sweeping the floor.. den suddenly it became quiet and the mom went to check it out and found him floating on the water face up and unconscious.. so quickly she brought him out and started CPR immediately.. after a while the child coughed and subsequently regained consciousness.. his mom actually brought him back to life!! see the importance of bystander CPR ya.. :) the child went to HD eventually..

1700HRS, 23/06/08
Rest of the night was all peaceful.. as in no more resus.. but pts jus keep coming and they come ONE BY ONE!! tts kinda irritating cos u can't really rest(night shifts are really draining ya noe.. ).. haha! and i don't know whether my ear has some problem or wat.. wat i heard was a wheeze and another was rhonchi but when seen by Dr the lungs were clear for both.. thou the wheeze was eventually diagnosed as pneumonia.. kak jah say the nasal sound sometimes could sound like a rhonchi.. *shrugs* anyways.. was a OK shift lah.. haha.. 3 MORE NIGHTS to go!!! hai.. y did i request for the nights??

24hours

okays.. had a REALLY LOOONNG day yesterday.. was literally out for the whole day!! yes, 24hours!! haha.. was morning shift yesterday and as usual i was in-charge.. not exactly an eventful shift.. 2 resus, 1 ?GBS went to HD and the other was an onco case tt went to CICU.. i think i like the new resus assignment tingy.. the staff strength is evenly distributed and we have enough coverage ard the whole dept.. and the thing is, procedures can still carry on when there's a resus.. previously when the PNs are resus the whole list of procedures get delayed and the parents will all come in and pester the already-very-busy nurses.. haha! worst if there's a bad case like we're intubating or code blue etc.. so now tt we have more staffs(thou most are still quite junior), i think this 'resus team' tingy is a good arrangement..

after our shift, sister tor came and drove us to TTSH for our ECG symposium together with kak jah.. haha.. i think i'm such a disgrace.. or probably i was too tired.. i dozed off during the lecture!! WTH! haha.. i remembered i never did tt during my 3 yrs in nyp.. not even once i dozed off during any lectures.. no matter how dry the topic was.. Jaime had to pass me her sweets jus to keep me awake.. haha! but it was good.. well, at least for the parts when i was awake.. haha!

after tt went to meet my sis and wisnie for dinner.. waited till like 8pm before evelyn and jasen turned up.. by then i was SUPER HUNGRY already!! so we quickly made our way to Thai express as decided earlier.. haha.. after we made our orders, everybody's food came one by one.. then all came except mine and wisnie's!! we ordered the beef glass noodle soup and it took like a thousand years to come!! it always happens when u're the most hungry.. ur food always comes LAST!!! so after like 15mins my long awaited food finally came!! and its really nice!!! or perhaps i was too hungry.. haha.. the look of it is like the noodles telling u "i'm very tasty, EAT ME!!" hahaha!

after dinner we went to catch a show at marina.. You don't mess with the ZOHAN!! hahaha.. super duper lame show.. but was a nice show to watch after a long day lah.. destress abit.. haha.. oh.. forgot to mention.. Jasen was really sweet!! i asked for paracet cos was having this really bad headache(i think it came frm my toothache).. actually it started right frm the ECG symposium but i jus tahan throughout.. haha.. i dun like taking meds unless its really necessary.. so before the show started i tot i couldn't take it anymore so i asked for it.. Jasen said he have it in his car and without a second word he took one ticket with him and went off to get me the paracet, and told us to go in first.. aww~ isn't he sweet? soon after he came back with the paracet but it wasn't the one frm his car.. HE WENT ALL THE WAY TO BUY IT FOR ME!!! walau.. i was really touched lor!! but at the same time like paiseh liddat.. i was sitting down comfortably at the cinema and he had to walk like dunno how far to get it for me.. all thanks to him my headache slowly went away during the show and after the show i was ALIVE again! haha.. like batteries recharged.. :) eve's really fortunate to have a bf like him.. haha!

the rest of the night was a total spoiler!! they suggested going to this pub at carpenters st called the Dreamerz Bar.. according to my sis, i knew the boss of this pub(i'm totally unaware of it) and she keeps telling it to everybody! apparently he's this guy we met at Le Bar some time ago and he even gave me his card which i have no idea where is it now.. anyway, i supposed he's not some attractive guy to catch my attention hence the 'not remembering who he is'.. haha.. and so is his 'pub'.. its soooo lock cock i'm lost for words to describe it!! we were standing outside of the pub and we couldn't believe our eyes.. "look at the floor.. look at the tables and chairs.." i said.. haha! i think even the pub tt kenneth's working at is much better, thou they say its also v 'lock'.. at least there's a concept..

we went in anyways cos wisnie already 'dian ge' and our songs are coming up le.. eve's 2 cousins joined us too.. i tell u.. the chairs are like those 跌打place kinda chairs! (read: wooden chairs) floor's not carpeted and NOT SWEPT!! the sound system was a disaster.. and the beer got this salty taste and its abit like diluted.. and the place was VERY VERY NOISY!! its not as many ppl as Le Bar, but its sooo much noisier! so noisy tt i couldn't hear myself singing and had to cover my ear.. Le Bar's crowded but u still can hear ur voice v clearly when singing lor.. and the system is 10000 times better can.. one word: FAIL!!!!!! hahahaha..

so we quickly finished our drinks and went to Chamber 82 instead.. well, so far no place can be compared to Le Bar.. But.. still better than tt 'ulu sembawang' place.. haha! settled ourselves down and we're more 'focused'.. haha.. i think we're too distracted previously by the couldn't-believe-our-eyes place and was too busy complaining.. played some games and had our usual dose of laughter and i finally get to sing a decent song after hours of waiting! haha..

We reached home at almost 5am!!! haha.. tts y i said.. i was out for like 24hours!!! fell asleep straight after i lie on my bed.. and it rained in the morning!! woohoo~ never had such a good sleep for a long time!! haha.. Next friday back to Le Bar!! yay!! NO MORE NONSENSE PLACES PLEASE!! wahaha..

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Bewildered

I seriously have no idea if this is what I really want..

I'm not even sure of my own doings..

This is killing me..

I HEART Forever21!!!

Just when i was about to squeeze dry my brain juice(haha!), thinking of what to wear tonight.. THE PARCEL HAS ARRIVED!!!! yay!! just so very in time!! YES!! its my orders frm forever21! straight from the states!! hee~

I luurrvvee the orders this time.. 5 dresses in all and all fitted PERFECTLY!!! mom's gona scream at me again.. like how she did the other day when she complained tt we buy too many clothes and the wardrobe's almost bursting! haa! but i dun care.. which girl on earth doesn't like buying new clothes???!!

I prefer shopping @ Forever21 online rather than at the outlet itself.. Firstly i dun have to search high and low for the S size.. it seems i always have a hard time looking for my size at the outlet and i have to dig at every piece of clothing jus to find my size.. and after tt u still gotta que for the fitting room and try on ur outfits.. Secondly, i dun think they import all the designs frm the states.. which means, u'll never find some of them in Singapore!! do i need to explain further?? haha.. and lastly(but of course, we dun even need all these reasons in the first place), the quality of the clothings are alot better as compared to the ones u get locally.. maybe its psychological.. oh, i forgot.. the prices are reasonable too even after the postage.. haha! I LOVE FOREVER21!!!! :)

Crazy Mahjong

went over richard's place for mahjong on saturday... this IS the WORST SESSION EVER IN HISTORY!!!!!!! i never win a single round!!! WHAT DA HELL!!! haha... and my tiles were all so 'sui' lor!! dunno wat is happening... shall not say anymore.. ARGH!!!~~

My first yoga class!!

went for my FIRST yoga class with tee yu and darling yesterday at Pure Yoga.. haha! after seeing darling going for her yoga classes and seemed to enjoy herself so much, me n tee yu were also tempted to join her for class, jus to have an experience.. wat can i say.. it was fun!!! haha.. i think i'm still quite flexible given the fact tt i haven't been exercising since i graduated frm SAC!!!

We did the hot yoga session and hell, it was really HOT!! i've never perspired SOOOOO much at one time in my entire life!! i remembered darling said the room temp was at ard 38degrees (if tts correct.. haha),and while doing my sweat was dripping down the floor!! yes it dripped.. the instructor was a really young fella.. at first i tot he's one of the students.. haha.. the positions were still ok for me at the beginning.. did the somewhat 'standard' yoga positions.. but towards the end he was focusing more on the abdomen and tt part almost killed me!! haha.. there was this thing where he wanted us to balance on our sacrum, hands and chest off the floor, legs both in the air and raise our legs interchangeably.. i swear my legs were shaking when we paused!! tt was the only part i hated during the class.. haha.. otherwise i think the yoga was really good! i can feel my blood circulating once again after like YEARS!! haha.. i told darling abt this and she jus laughed! like my blood wasn't circulating all these while...haha.. now i'm deciding whether to go for regular classes or not.. heh~

we were soo hungry after class and decided to go for dinner at coffee club.. erm.. like all our effort gone down the drain cos u're eating all the 'fattening' food straight after class[we had pastas.. yes..].. haha! well, its ok for me lah.. i live on carbo so if i dun eat i think i'll faint anyways..

supposed to meet kelvin for dinner but he said he had an appt at 8pm and was quite late after our class already so decided to meet up for a small drink instead.. thought of going Le Bar since he got nowhere to suggest.. haha.. so darling and i made our way to Le Bar first after dinner.. and i'm gona scream!! Le Bar WAS FULL HOUSE AT 10PM!!!! wat da hell!!!! i noe its friday lah.. but its only 10pm lor!!! we used to go to the old Le Bar on Saturday at 10plus and its only a few tables of ppl.. THIS IS CRAZY!!! so we decided to walk down the street and see if there's any other pubs we can go.. down the whole stretch of Neil Rd, pubs after pubs, we were so damn turned off by all the pubs.. its either they're all so 'lock cock' or they're all the 'lao lang gey'(old ppl) pubs.. there was one which had like hostress wearing the super glittery dress, super big hairdo and was singing on the STAGE lor!! yes, they have a stage in the pub!!! SUPER SONG(old fashioned), SONG UNTIL THE CORE OF MY ARSE I TELL U!!! hahahaha.. we almost fainted after we peeped in the pub.. now we see why Le Bar was full house.. *faintz*

since we're at chinatown already, and there's jus no place tt we liked so i suggested to go sing K instead.. darling brought me to the 10dollar KTV.. haha.. i din noe they have such CHEAP KTVs in sg.. the place abit lock cock lah.. but the songs are ok.. same system as Le Bar's.. so actually quite new song they have there.. kelvin joined us laters and brought along his friend.. HIS FRIEND CAN SING!!! haha.. nobody in Le Bar can beat him i think.. haha.. and he can sing stefanie sun's and A-mei's songs better than a girl!! darling so wanted to check whether he's really a guy anot.. haha.. we even tot of PR-ing him!! wahahaha...

was totally shagged after a really long day.. morning shift, +/- shopping, yoga class, walking down Neil Rd then Duxton then Chinatown with my super heavy bag, KTV.. i got tired halfway singing.. haha.. and i fell asleep right after i lie on my bed!! tts a rare scene okays.. haha.. i think its the yoga.. haven't had a good sleep ever since i started working.. i think i'm going for more yoga classes!!!