Devastated

Not me.. But the parents of the poor boy yesterday.. Caught a glimpse of them hugging their boy and wailing when the door of the multi purpose room opened.. Was too much a heartache for me to take.. I was in-charge yesterday so had to do the paper work and last office for him.. My hands were trembling when I went thru the papers.. Not the first time I face a BID case.. Didn't understand why I felt that way then..

Was abt 1140hrs when we received the VHF to call for standby for a RTA, collapsed case.. So Dr Tham decided to call for trauma code first while we prepared for the case.. Intubation, drugs, fluids, spinal board, blah blah.. and when the code team arrived the whole resus room was in a total mess.. even before the boy arrived.. Sister Indra wanted me to do the documentation cos she thinks it'll be too confusing for Michelle to handle.. So when the boy arrived I helped to transfer and cos of the position that I was standing, I had no choice but to start doing CPR for him.. In tt 1 second Dr Tham gave me that look like 'y aren't ur hands moving? do the CPR!'.. so I jus started anyways.. First time doing it on a child.. At tt moment.. it din bother me whether my hands were tired or whether I was standing in a weird position or not(bed was too high and I was tip-toeing while doing).. I jus did it with all the energy i had.. for a second i felt like crying.. I simply do not understand what was happening to me..

After like 5 mins one of the surgeons decided to take over me so i went to take over Michelle for the documentation.. was horrified and felt like screaming at her after i saw the clip board!! NOTHING WRITTEN!!! WTH! resus started like 5 mins ago and nothing there!! already intubated and started with adrenaline and fluids and the charts were EMPTY!! had no choice but to write the total amt of fluids tt went in at a single timing.. lucky Jumat was counting how many boluses we gave.. Okays.. Sister Indra did mention that she wanted me to do documentation.. but given the situation and she doing nothing in the resus room I dun understand y din she have the initiative to do the charting.. and good gracious she was HOLDING ON TO THE BOARD!!

So after giving like countless of fluid boluses(it was one page of N/saline bolus already), plus E-blood and 6 adrenaline the Drs thought we already did our best already and decided to call.. Time of death 1223hrs..

We could all hear the mother's helpless cry outside the resus room.. He was still there when she left for work in the morning.. Now, he's gone.. Taken home to be with the Lord.. To be an angel, happily playing by His side, where its all so peaceful..

Shagged..

Crazy shift!! Was on night yesterday and the crowd was horrifying! Highest record was 56 on the queue! Wat were all those parents thinking when they decided to bring their child to CE?? If its for vomiting or diarrhoea then its not so bad cos u still can say u're worried of dehydration.. but most of them brought their child for FEVER!!! and its not like prolong fever or watsoeva.. like there's more than 10 on the que for fever ONE DAY!! DON'T THEY HAVE PARACETAMOL AT HOME???!!! tts not the most irritating part.. worst of all are those parents who REFUSE to give fever meds to their child and let the temperature shoot up past 39.5 degrees and because of the PROTOCOL we have to 9 them in!! and the rest of the queue will be jus jammed up cos there's simply too many 9 cases! R-I-D-I-C-U-L-O-U-S!!!!!!

Another high attendance is currently HFMD.. all thanks to the newspaper report that said HFMD might cause brain damage and death... din actually see the report but Ms Dan told me.. so at triage u see cases like one small dot on the hand and the parents think its HFMD so brought the child to CE.. I seriously pity the GPs out there.. their income must have gone downhill nowadays cos out of PARENTAL STUPIDITY they jus bring straight to us..

Ever since I started working in CE I've never seen the que pass 50 okays.. I mean, I've heard them complain but it din really happen when i was on shift u see.. and yesterday, for the first time, its 56!! well, we were intubating a drowsy child at tt time lah.. but before that was like 53 already so not tt much a difference.. talking abt tt.. yesterday was my first ever experience to stand at the head during intubation.. so i asissted in the suction, cricoid and stuff.. haha! it felt so... funny! while i was applying cricoid and the tube going in... i can feel it lor!! ugh~! but was a good one yesterday.. Pauline was like so steady when she tube the child.. haha.. probably done it too many times already given her jinx-ness.. haha! the poor child was newly diagnosed with brain tumor after the CT scan.. at first we tot was meningitis.. sighz..

So the last number today when i handed over was 555, when the number we took over was 370+.. at 1am we already hit 500 can.. WTH.. shld see the waiting area sia.. hope tonight will be better if not i think i'm gona fall sick again if this continues.. lets pray hard! :)

Surprise surprise!!

Yesterday was the first day back at work after my leave.. and guess wat I saw when I opened my locker??

Tadaa!!~~

Haha! okays.. not to look at how messy my locker is.. but the flowers and the present!! heh! Got a shock when I saw all those.. :) Who else will 'break in' my locker other than HONEY??!! hahaha.. yep.. those were frm her.. A lovely bouquet of nice smelling flowers, hoodie frm old navy, plus a 'greeting card' handmade by her..

Her piece of creation has MICKEY on it!! haha~ I jus LUURRVVEE the gifts!! I think honey's kinda scary... She simply knows how to cheer ppl up! hee~ I LOVE U HONEY!! muackzz!

Virgin trip to Din Tai Feng!

Went out with Qin Ai De few days ago.. Actually the main objective of the day was to go look at her Coach bag and my Gucci wallet.. haha.. wanted to see the actual thing first before buying it.. But it seemed to become the least important thing tt day.. haha..

Went to buy my skinfood stuff at Novena and then CE to submit my appraisal first before meeting her at Taka.. Thats after her yoga class! haha.. darling's doing like 'intensive yoga' to lose weight n stuff.. for her coming wedding tt is... haha.. anyways.. after we went to like ALL the boutiques at Taka we're kinda hungry already so thought of grabbing some food... and plus my legs were in great pain! haha.. din expect to really shop so i wore heels tt day.. finding a place to sit and eat plus rest my feet seemed a "duh" choice.. Soup spoon was wat we wanted initially.. so the two of us slowly walked and laughed our way to Paragon... another 'rich tai-tai' place.. haha.. but after we reach Paragon we're like.. 'u sure jus wana eat soup spoon?' haha.. ended up in Din Tai Feng instead..

To our surprise, it was both our virgin trip to Din Tai Feng in Singapore!! hahaha... both of us been to the ones in Taiwan, but not here in SG.. so we settled ourselves down and started ordering... Darling wanted to have sour & spicy noodles but they only have the soup.. so we asked the waitress whether they can put some noodles in it.. then she said yes, cos they sell like plain noodles oso.. but when we looked at the menu.. the plain noodles are $5 per bowl, and the soup is like $6.50!!! so total will be $11.50 lors!!! WAT DA... hahaha... ended up jus ordering the soup and I ordered shrimp wanton noodles, then obviously we ordered the xiao long bao [like if nv order den wat are we there for right?], plus another yam paste mini dumplings.. haha.. at first we tot we ordered only a few things so tot of ordering some more later if not enough.. haha! but when the food was served, the table got like not enough space to put lor!! haha.. oh.. maybe the table was kinda small.. haha.. but still we couldn't finish the food! towards the end we jus forced each other to 'u eat this, i eat that'.. haha..

After tt we went to Far East to shop for rings.. I wanted to get a new pinkie ring and darling oso wanted to get some new rings.. And u know being girls.. haha.. when we say we want to get something, we ALWAYS end up buying other non-related stuff but not the ones we initially wanted!! hahaha.. so we got ourselves some cardigans, i bought a dress, darling bought a pair of heels blah blah... and neither of us bought any rings!! wahaha... towards the end i tot my legs were killing me already so jus anyhow bought a pair of slippers to change into.. haha.. girls are jus girls.. want to be pretty and dun care abt her life.. hahaha!

Going out with darling was really enjoyable!! we jus kept talking nonsense and laughing so loudly wherever we go.. did i mention? I was laughing so loudly at Din Tai Feng and darling said like more than 10 ppl turned their heads at me lor!! hahaha... so malu!!

Happy Birthday to ME!!

Yay!! Its my Birthday!! haha.. erm.. like 2 days ago... wahaha.. was kinda busy so din have time to update.. Anyways.. I wana thank each and everyone of you who gave me a really really wonderful day!! I really enjoyed myself and never been so happy this period of time... Shall not mention abt unhappy things here! haha...

Okays.. So my B'dae celebration was literally at Neil Rd! hahaha.. serious.. Went to Himawari's Neil Rd branch to have our dinner.. The food was nice! Erm.. ok lah... better than the usual buffet food u get elsewhere.. haha.. but tts not important... We really went CRAZY tt day lors!! haha.. booked the private room with karaoke... the sound system and songs i must say is quite good!! hahaha.. expected it to be abit 'lock cock'.. but no lor!!! the songs are more recent than Le Bar's!! hahaha..

Oh ya.. forgot abt my B'dae present!!! This is a MUST TELL!!! hahaha... Its the most CREATIVE present I've received so far... All thanks to Ms Ore.. haha.. Here's the story: One day I was jus casually/jokingly saying I want a LV speedy 25 for my birthday... And this Ms Ore took it for real and tot of this idea.. She collected a fair share of money frm everyone and put it in a LV's wallet box with the small little pouch in it PLUS LV's carrier!! So when I saw the LV carrier, I got a shock and tot, "they seriously got me a LV?? can't be ba..." haha.. Shld see the video they took of me when opening my present... the feel-like-slapping-them face.. haha! faintz~

So those who went for the dinner were CE's ppl plus my sis n her friends.. at first i tot it'll become 2 seperate groups at the restaurant.. but no lor!! both sides were equally crazy and they machiam noe each other all the while lor! haha... they even sang with each other and din bother abt me! hahaha... but tts good lah... everyone left the place happy! I hope.. haha!

After which we obviously walked down to Le Bar.. haha.. Its jus like 1 small street away frm each other.. Imagine if we take cab.. the uncle will jus think we all siao okays! hahaha.. Went in to Le Bar and Chris looked surprised seeing me.. and said," upper deck ok?" den i jus blur and followed Jerene up.. haha.. so he changed my tables.. initially i reserved the lower deck.. the one outside the toilet.. haha.. den he say upper deck bigger space and gave me tt.. Our tables got my name tags on it!!! hahahahaha.. make us feel so posh liddat.. usually they jus put the 'reserved' tag on it..

As usual we bacame the noise pollutant there! haha.. the most noisy and screaming-our-lungs-out group.. even my sis can't stand it and say they dun wana talk to us cos we're more noisy than them!! wahaha.. and we took like ten thousand photos lor!! hahaha.. jus kept taking and taking.. den while we're so engrossed with our crazy moment, suddenly the whole place became quiet and they played the Happy Birthday song.. I tell u.. Le Bar's B'dae song is SONG DE LOR!!! [old fashion in hokkien]haha.. like those u see in primary school era kind.. den my sis and Jane jane walked up with my birthday cake!!! hehe.. ok lah... not totally surprised but still was quite touched at tt moment! haha.. so they sang like the longest b'dae song ever.. english, chinese, cantonese... and plus their own version... haha.. it was so loud i tot the whole Le Bar sang the song together! haha.. and i got the most number of birthday kisses tt day!! hahahaha... not those peck on the cheeks kind.. mouth to mouth okays!! Qin ai de, my sis, wisnie, evelyn, jane jane, yuting, stella... like everyone working at Le Bar kissed me!!! hahahaha.. so happy!!

Really a GREAT Birthday celebration this year!! haha.. too many photos for me to load here.. see it in facebook or my friendster if u want ya.. shall update when i have time again!! ciaoz!

Today's Menu: Bibim Bap (Korean Mixed Rice)

Yes! I cooked myself a meal today!! haha.. Its the first time I'm cooking a real meal! I mean, I've cooked pasta, made sushi.. those are not tt much a hassle.. This is REAL cooking okays! haha.. So I made Bibim Bap, like it says frm my title.. its Korean mixed rice.. where u have meat(beef, pork or chicken), different kinds of vegetables, egg, of cos rice lah.. haha.. Then all the ingredients are placed nicely in the bowl on top of the rice, then u add chilli paste and mix everything together.. In Korea, there's 2 ways of eating.. Erm.. more for different season rather.. During winter, they use a stone bowl (smth like claypot), heat it up and put everything in.. So when they serve the rice u still can hear the sizzling sound coming.. Then during summer, they just serve the rice in a normal metal bowl.. Made sense? When the weather is cold, u eat hot, vice versa... haha.. But I prefer the stone bowl cos u get those slightly burnt rice at the end and it jus tastes sooo good! heh~ So lets see what we've got...

First was going to buy the stuff that I need. Oh well, just some vegetables and meat. haha.

Next, preparing the ingredients! haha.. well, I sliced the meat and marinated it.. Then was all the vege.. washing, cutting, picking the roots of the tau gey.. haha..

Then went on to fry all those things.. I've never fried vegetables before in my whole life!! haha.. I think I have talent.. Only watched my mom cook a few times and never really had hands on.. But my picky taste bud says it tasted quite well! hee~ After frying was assembling of the ingredients..

Well, of cos this can't be compared to those restaurant made ones.. But looks ok eh? haha.. then went on to mix everything together!

Okays.. Doesn't look as good as the previous pic.. but it was really nice!! haha.. Cos I used Korean chilli bean paste to mix it so it really got the 'Korean taste'.. haha.. First time cooking: passed!

Oh ya.. bought some of my favourite too.. STRAWBERRIES!!!! ok.. this is just coincidental that the strawberries are from Korea.. Its the mini version and I tot it was really cute so i bought it! Not to mention, its sweet too! :)

ALONE!!

Heh~ I'm enjoying the 'alone time' this week.. Parents to Taiwan, sis to bangkok!! Now I have PEACE!!! yay!