Bestest Bud

long before the days where BFF is habitually used as a term to describe best friends, "Bestest Bud" was what we called each other.
Me and sherlyne.
if you say we're the closest two in the entire school i seriously think no one would disagree.
for being such a geek in the olden days [okays, admit i'm old], i was mostly remebered as sher's best friend and not my name.
not that sad actually, kinda funny rather.

i missed us. seriously.
missed those times we wrote small notes to each other in class.
missed us having training together.
missed going to town after school.
missed the times where we were late for school and had to unpick our pinafore cos it was too short.
missed how sad we were when we got streamed to different classes.
missed our laughter, when we were still so young and innocent.

i feel bad. and i totally regreted not being there for her when she needed someone.
especially when her dad passed on.
its been so long, so long that i can't recall why we drifted apart.
and like i said, i feel really bad.
for not putting in effort to keep our relationship going.
i say relationship becos i feel we're more than friends.
she's more like a family member to me.
someone in the family whom i've let down.

i've always wanted to 'rebuild' this relationship but i guess i just have no courage.
i don't know why.
i think of her every now and then but jus have no guts to even drop her a msg in fb.
but thankfully jo helped me.
and i'm really really grateful of her bringing us back together.
even if its just the 2 days we met, i was really happy and i guess we really enjoyed ourselves.

so i'm telling myself that from now onwards i'm gona put in effort to build the relationship again and i really hope we can be close like before.
cos i really treasure her alot and i noe, the thing thats most important besides your family are your friends.
and she's much much important cos she's my family. :)