Happiness

Really touched by what darling said in her recent post.. abt how richard is the angel sent by her daddy from heaven to walk her through the rest of her life.. i cried as i was reading.. you know, i think its true when people say that a daddy will always protect his girl no matter what happened, and if a guy cannot protect you and take care of you the way your daddy did, then never marry this person.. well, this i believe to a certain extent.. nobody, even the best guy you think you ever met, can ever replace your daddy..

I was being brought up with my daddy pampering and spoiling me.. he always wants the best for me and my sis.. the best food, the best clothes.. a certain thing we wanted and he'll get the best quality of it for us, never minded the price.. we're not from a well to do family that is.. thats his way of loving us.. not much words spoken, but deep in our hearts, we know he loves us..

Perhaps thats how it affected the way i see a man.. the father figure.. sometimes i'm really envious of my mom.. to have met such a wonderful man in her life, and to start a family with him.. i couldn't help but wonder, will i ever meet somebody like him? to provide me his unconditional love, to take care of me like his little girl..

With my wilful thinking, a lot of times i thought, maybe by showing it first will i get the kind of love i always wanted.. and in attempts to do so, it always ended up with me getting hurt.. the torment was simply too much to bear.. i've since learnt to relinquish the idea, the search for the perfect father figure, and come to realise that no one can ever replace my daddy..

I think daddy wanted the same as i did.. for me to meet someone who loves me the way he does.. i still remember very clearly how his tears fell when he learnt about what happened to sis.. my heart ached so badly i thought i was dying from it.. never do i want to see that happen ever again.. that i promised myself..

I'm really happy for darling.. that she'd found her happiness.. being so blessed and blissful with her hubby.. well, if yours has yet to come, why not feel happy for the one you love first right? :)