lOst |N rEVEr|E

kev is one kick-arse-irritating man.. haas.. no, not in a bad way.. i say he's kick arse irritating cos he's jus damn good at "reading" ur mind, understanding ur thoughts.. he's so straight to the point its kinda like "ouch! tt hurts!".. but damn.. he's fucking right.. jus a brief conversation i had with him and he sort of "opened" my thinking and brought my real self back..

the real me.. the girl with her own thinking, knows how to get what she wants, simply always knowing what to do when things happen..

i guess what he said was right, when he said tt i was too emotionally involved.. he was surprised i became like tt.. hell.. not only was he surprised.. ME myself felt it too.. AND he was right (again) when he pointed tt what i fear is actually failure.. i cannot take the fact tt i was failing, or maybe have already failed the relationship.. especially so when things were kinda alright and suddenly.. POOF! its gone.. becos of being too emotionally involved, i find it hard to let go.. and becos i din wana fail, i wanted to hang on, hoping things will be back to normal and i become happy again..

thou he din say exactly how to do it, but at least i have some insight on how to handle this right now with his guidance..

now i feel much much better.. its like letting an ultra heavy load off my chest.. kev jus has this special power to make ppl see things logically and.. i don't know.. pull you out of the landslide? :)