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Fate
–noun
1. something that unavoidably befalls a person; fortune; lot.
2. the universal principle or ultimate agency by which the order of things is presumably prescribed; the decreed cause of events; time.
3. that which is inevitably predetermined; destiny.
4. a prophetic declaration of what must be.


Things happen for a reason. Don't you think so? But when it becomes inexplicable, more than often the attribution goes to the word 'fate'. "God has His plans." As what I would always tell myself. Not that I'm a devoted christian, neither do I have any 'true' religion to follow. Perhaps it's the influence I got in school. You know, back in SAC where we had religious classes, bible study and stuff. We pray to one God whether you're a catholic, buddhist or muslim. Thats what I learnt. I believe in God, but not of a specific religion. I talk to God. Okays, only when I'm desperate for help. hee~ Whatever it is, I'm still sticking to the point that God make things happen, and He has His reason for doing so.

I'm telling myself that this is all fated. Why did God make me realise my feelings only at this particular point of time, after it's been decided. Why didn't it occur when all along he was there? When all along he was there, no (actual)plans ahead. Perhaps I was being too cautious. Or perhaps I wasn't sure if those feelings I had were for real or was it out of loneliness, desperation or merely just an infatuation. I didn't want to 'make use' of him, so to speak.

I'm telling everyone out there that I didn't shed a single tear last night. Though I was expecting myself to. Should I say that what happened in the past has made me a stronger person? To better control my emotions? (Well, Jovi said he see that I've grown stronger. *shrugs*) I haven't been a real fan of seperation. I don't think anyone is. *faints* I remember how I cried my eyes and lungs out when Sher and I had been streamed to different classes in Sec 2. Then when she had to follow her mom to Canada. Next was when Joy left for Aussie. That was less than a year ago. We all agreed to send her off happily as she's going there to persue her dream. But that night, we all went home with red and puffy eyes and a bad sniff. I think I really had grown alot ever since (you know what happened). Not physically of cos. *rolls eyes* Mentally and emotionally, rather.

Well, we'll see how it goes. Thats all can be said right now. :)